The only reason I'm posting here is because this is really the only sub who would even know who I am and could understand the context. as the title states...i got banned from /r/askgaybros and I don't know why...I thought it was a welcoming place but apparently I'm not welcome there...is there something wrong with me? What did I do wrong? That place felt like my second home and a place to vent and cope with my hard life. I know you guys don't like me but please...I want some insight. I'll literally beg if I have to. What's wrong with me?

I understand if you guys just jump on me...I probably deserve it. But getting banned from there is just the next step in a long list of bad things that have been happening to me lately and part of me feels like i deserve it. First I get a bad performance review from my work and I was put on probation, then I get into that huge fight with my parents and they STILL are pretty tense around me, then the guy I was seeing broke things off and told me why he left me and at first I didn't believe him but now I'm starting to think he may have been right, and now I've been banned from the one place i felt safe to vent about it all.

I've never felt more down. I feel like my life is in a downward spiral and I don't know how to stop. I've always thought that counseling was bullshit but maybe I need it because I can't think of anything else that might help. I'm still not sure.

So please...help me. What's wrong with me?