Last night I was a little psychotic again and was cutting to get the evil blood out. I cut to punish myself or because I lose control and hurt myself uncontrollably.
Oh, everything. I do badly in school. I'm ungrateful. I'm a bad person. I have no talent or use for humanity. I should hurt myself more, but most of the time I'm too numb to do anything. I am so pathetic I am not even succeeding at cutting myself. My cuts are pathetic compared to people on selfharmpics.
We're all bad people. The only good people are weirdos like the Amish who are competely sheltered and organized from birth. Nothing you described are unique circumstances. So if you deserved punishing surely others would do that for you. Why do you feel you need to hurt yourself then? Do you think others should hurt themselves?
I think I see. My point was though that you can't be that bad and even if you are nobody cares unless you're like an African Warlord bad or a, I think I see. My point was though that you can't be that bad and even if you are nobody cares unless you're like an African Warlord bad, or a, may allah forgive me for uttering this word - a communist. Do you take medicine or go to some sort of therapy?
damn dude, that sounds rough. How often do you have psychotic episodes or become detached from reality? Does it interfere with your daily life? and I seriously hope you the best
I think I've been having psychotic episodes since maybe age 12. I have them maybe every few weeks or months.
I don't hallucinate. I just have I guess what some people would consider "delusional thoughts" but even when I'm "sane" like right now I still have those thoughts and it still makes sense to me. It makes sense to me right now that the government has put a chip in my brain and I'm cursed.
I'm doing better in class now and do sort of struggle with the delusional episodes and anxiety. I used to spend all of one class hiding and crying in the bathroom. During my bio class I would stab myself with pencils and punch myself in the head. I still get very stressed and fidget and bite myself compulsively.
For a while, I had a healthy interest in Iranian culture. Not obsessive, not disturbing, just normal cultural exploration. I also had a fantasy identity of being Iranian. Then I got thrown in the world of racial politics and learned many people didn't consider Iranians "white". I tried to offset this by becoming more interested in Southern European cultures and made up fantasy identies to go along with them.
So, I'm not actually Albanian. I made this account pretending to be an Albanian woman.
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n/a TwasIWhoShotJR 2017-07-09
I notice you're a fellow simmer.
What is your favorite version of the sims and why is it The Sims 2?
n/a PatternsInMyLife 2017-07-09
I've never played Sims 2 before (or 4). Only 3 and original. 3 is my fave. I pirated it and love all the features and expansions.
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n/a respaaaaaj 2017-07-09
Holy shit snapshillbot is the best poster on reddit.
n/a respaaaaaj 2017-07-09
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n/a PatternsInMyLife 2017-07-09
Wish is granted
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n/a 80BAIT08 2017-07-09
Why do you cut and why did you post it here?
n/a PatternsInMyLife 2017-07-09
Last night I was a little psychotic again and was cutting to get the evil blood out. I cut to punish myself or because I lose control and hurt myself uncontrollably.
n/a 80BAIT08 2017-07-09
What do you do that warrants punishing yourself?
n/a PatternsInMyLife 2017-07-09
Oh, everything. I do badly in school. I'm ungrateful. I'm a bad person. I have no talent or use for humanity. I should hurt myself more, but most of the time I'm too numb to do anything. I am so pathetic I am not even succeeding at cutting myself. My cuts are pathetic compared to people on selfharmpics.
n/a 80BAIT08 2017-07-09
We're all bad people. The only good people are weirdos like the Amish who are competely sheltered and organized from birth. Nothing you described are unique circumstances. So if you deserved punishing surely others would do that for you. Why do you feel you need to hurt yourself then? Do you think others should hurt themselves?
n/a PatternsInMyLife 2017-07-09
They can if they want to? It's kind of a personal thing that's not about other people. I'm just worse than other people and do genuinely deserve it.
n/a 80BAIT08 2017-07-09
I think I see. My point was though that you can't be that bad and even if you are nobody cares unless you're like an African Warlord bad or a, I think I see. My point was though that you can't be that bad and even if you are nobody cares unless you're like an African Warlord bad, or a, may allah forgive me for uttering this word - a communist. Do you take medicine or go to some sort of therapy?
n/a BizarrelyRussophilic 2017-07-09
Are you feeling better today?
n/a PatternsInMyLife 2017-07-09
Feeing worse. I'm always happiest when I have no/little contact with reality.
n/a BizarrelyRussophilic 2017-07-09
I'm sorry to hear that, that really sounds miserable. Do you plan on seeking medical attention for your illness?
n/a PatternsInMyLife 2017-07-09
I'll just weather out the storm this time. I think I'd be commuted now and I have three classes left this summer. Maybe in three weeks.
n/a BizarrelyRussophilic 2017-07-09
damn dude, that sounds rough. How often do you have psychotic episodes or become detached from reality? Does it interfere with your daily life? and I seriously hope you the best
n/a PatternsInMyLife 2017-07-09
I think I've been having psychotic episodes since maybe age 12. I have them maybe every few weeks or months.
I don't hallucinate. I just have I guess what some people would consider "delusional thoughts" but even when I'm "sane" like right now I still have those thoughts and it still makes sense to me. It makes sense to me right now that the government has put a chip in my brain and I'm cursed.
I'm doing better in class now and do sort of struggle with the delusional episodes and anxiety. I used to spend all of one class hiding and crying in the bathroom. During my bio class I would stab myself with pencils and punch myself in the head. I still get very stressed and fidget and bite myself compulsively.
n/a darth_stroyer 2017-07-09
Why would you want to a POC when Kosovars are already basically Turks?
n/a PatternsInMyLife 2017-07-09
Haha :)
For a while, I had a healthy interest in Iranian culture. Not obsessive, not disturbing, just normal cultural exploration. I also had a fantasy identity of being Iranian. Then I got thrown in the world of racial politics and learned many people didn't consider Iranians "white". I tried to offset this by becoming more interested in Southern European cultures and made up fantasy identies to go along with them.
So, I'm not actually Albanian. I made this account pretending to be an Albanian woman.
n/a darth_stroyer 2017-07-09
Fuk u analbanian terrorist kosovo je srbija