Me and my gf have been going through a pretty rough time in our relationship recently. We both lost close family members a few weeks ago and it’s put us both into really shitty moods, we’ve been fighting often over the most petty shit. Pretty much anything can set us off and it’s driving us apart.

A few days ago some friends invited us to go to a small all you can eat Chinese place, now she loves Chinese food but me not so much. It was the first time I had seen her excited and happy about something in weeks so i wasn’t going to turn down the offer, thought it might put us back on the right path you know.

So we go and it me and her plus 4 other friends and honestly the night was great. She was laughing and I was smiling. It was like the storm clouds that had been covering my head were starting to pass and I could see the sun for the first time in ages. The food was way better than I had expected, everyone was having fun I even did my Gordon Ramsay impression. God it might just have been the best night of my life.

We were both pretty drunk when we got home (we walked I’m not stupid). We started to get touchy and intimate. Before long we were kissing and things started to move forward. This was the first time we had done anything similar in weeks and it felt amazing. It was steamy and passionate and we were both loving it. She told me to talk dirty to her and being the fuckwit I was I whispered something in her ear, she didn’t hear it so asked me to repeat it but louder so I got up on top of her and screamed as loudly as I could: “ITS FUCKING RAW”.

Guys I haven’t seen her since then. She ran out of our own place yelling and crying. She isn’t answering her phone I don’t know what to do. I feel like I fucked up real bad.