Since mods banned me for a day because "filter evasion", I thought I'll shitpost my personal life and whine like a little bitch instead of making """"""politikal"""""" comments.

So there's this girl, let's call her Mel. We've known each other for two years, give or take. At first I've been trying to flirt with her but eventually gave up because she didn't give me any green light but we stayed friends, like actual, kinda close friends. I moved away from the city where both of us lived. Then when I moved away she started jokingly flirting with me. I thought it was because I'm most unserious person ever she thought I wouldn't take it seriously and I didn't. I even told her about some other girls I've been seeing so my un-interest towards her would be totally clear.

Fast forward, from last September to December I went off the grid for three months or so, nobody except for my family knew what I was doing, I didn't return any calls or messages and didn't use any social media. I was mostly unreachable. Last month I got out of off the grid mode and began talking other people again, including Mel. She asked me of a picture of me and said she missed me so much. Everything went back fo normal, except... Out of nowhere she began acting cold to me and told she was mad at me. I didn't understand what's going on and asked why, she said "no reason". I thought she was joking but she began replying me with one word answers and kept doing it for two days. So I asked again what's wrong and she said "I'm not mad at you, I'm disappointed because you weren't there for months. I felt like you left me."

Her wording was so weird. What the fuck does "leaving someone" mean if we are not in a relationship? But I tried not misreading it. I told her why I went off the grid etc. and left it there. But she wasn't any friendly here on. I asked whether she was joking because what the fuck? She said "I'm sorry but we can't go on, now we are half, we will never be as we were." (Literal quote, translated). Now I'm more confused than ever, because I thought we were just friends. It turns out we were "BF & GF" and "I was aware of that". Like, how? What the fuck is going on in her mind, I don't know. Sad thing is this much instability from a foid isn't the only example I experienced. I think being a foid should be ruled as mental illness.

Thank you for coming to my TED Talk.