My wife left me

My wife used to leave me while I lied in bed with my ex-girlfriend in her little apartment at college. It's hard to do it now even though years have gone by. I've found another woman and I love her, even dated her longer at this point, but it's not the same. I'll never know the passion that I felt with my first love again, and I guess I'm alright with that. Smile that it happened as they say. Christ, I need a mother fricking drink but I told myself I'd cut down and not drink until the weekend. Lord give me fricking strength. Goddarn it. I quit making fun of pickmes too.