because of massive levels of mental illness since early childhood i was labeled the "bad kid" despite not really doing anything. i can recognize it wasn't really much of anything now but as a child i didn't really know any better. on top of that i was abused by my mother, bullied relentlessly for a very long time, and yeah
It sucks to hear about your childhood. I also suffered from abuse and bullying, I know it sounds cliche but really the only thing that made me feel better was to stop replaying the past over and over and focus on the present. Did the abuse suck growing up? Yeah! But I'm not being abused or bullied anymore. No point in living in the past, is there? Life got so much easier when I stopped being resentful of my parent and child bullies.
that's the fun part, nobody is really sure. my therapist says it's definitely some kind of mood disorder but i don't fit cleanly into any of the established diagnoses. it's better since childhood but yeah. and what you're talking about is called mindfulness and i know it's something i have to do. thank you for being kind btw!
I would be careful with therapy. I'm not going to say it's all worthless, but therapy never helped me and it's also made my friends worse off too. I would recommend reading Bad Therapy by Shirer, someone here actually recommended it to me and it was eye opening. It really made sense as to why my therapists sucked so much and why my friends are getting worse instead of better. It's a short read, I can send you a PDF if you want.
Not dwelling on the past is great. That doesn't mean you have to completely forget everything, or that you have to be a doormat to the people that treated you bad. It just means you aren't wasting all your energy living in the past and retraumatizing yourself over and over.
What also helps me is thinking about things about myself that I like. So you have things you don't like about yourself, but surely you have at least one thing about yourself that you like, you're proud of, or that people have spoke positively about yes? Can you give an example?
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Why do you hate yourself? What's making you feel this way?
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because of massive levels of mental illness since early childhood i was labeled the "bad kid" despite not really doing anything. i can recognize it wasn't really much of anything now but as a child i didn't really know any better. on top of that i was abused by my mother, bullied relentlessly for a very long time, and yeah
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Mental illness is fake, hope this helps!
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yeah well if it's fake why am i the son of god?
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Because you are a sad, lonely, attention whore desperate for anything to make you not seem so gay and boring
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darn dude, chill out
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Have you tried not using mental illness as an excuse for everything? Most modern mental illnesses are just a descriptor for why you suck as a person.
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What kind of mental illness do you have?
It sucks to hear about your childhood. I also suffered from abuse and bullying, I know it sounds cliche but really the only thing that made me feel better was to stop replaying the past over and over and focus on the present. Did the abuse suck growing up? Yeah! But I'm not being abused or bullied anymore. No point in living in the past, is there? Life got so much easier when I stopped being resentful of my parent and child bullies.
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that's the fun part, nobody is really sure. my therapist says it's definitely some kind of mood disorder but i don't fit cleanly into any of the established diagnoses. it's better since childhood but yeah. and what you're talking about is called mindfulness and i know it's something i have to do. thank you for being kind btw!
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I would be careful with therapy. I'm not going to say it's all worthless, but therapy never helped me and it's also made my friends worse off too. I would recommend reading Bad Therapy by Shirer, someone here actually recommended it to me and it was eye opening. It really made sense as to why my therapists sucked so much and why my friends are getting worse instead of better. It's a short read, I can send you a PDF if you want.
Not dwelling on the past is great. That doesn't mean you have to completely forget everything, or that you have to be a doormat to the people that treated you bad. It just means you aren't wasting all your energy living in the past and retraumatizing yourself over and over.
What also helps me is thinking about things about myself that I like. So you have things you don't like about yourself, but surely you have at least one thing about yourself that you like, you're proud of, or that people have spoke positively about yes? Can you give an example?
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If you want a serious answer than probably therapy and maybe meds. Are you broke or you have a job?
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Therapy is just buying time before you take the rope anyways
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