Hello, so last week you may have seen me post about my chastity cage, well that isn't the only thing that has been going on.

@Shellshock has actually agree to be my virtual keyholder!, and has given me a set of task each day that I have to complete.

Not only that, but to humiliate me further, he has requested that I post an update to rdrama each week about the progress we have made.

This is what the task entail!

Everyday Monday-Friday

• Knell down an worship my master by reciting a prayer three times

• Do hand free anal training for at least 15 minutes a day

I've never done anything anal-related before, so this has been a learning experience. I'm still really bad at it, but that is what the training is for, and I will be getting some toys soon that will help with learning.

I was successful in doing these task Tuesday-Friday, but in all honesty I forgot to do it yesterday, which I'm sure I will be punished for.

Saturday

• Peepee Inspection Day - Take multiple photos of my cage off to inspect the shrinkage and then more photo of my nude body to prove I've been shaving myself properly.

For the next few weeks taking picture of different part of my body will be mostly weekdays tasks, but for this week he let me do it all on Sunday since I had a lot to shave so it was a time consuming process lol

This one was a fun one that took a lot of effort, @Shellshock may describe the photos to you if you are lucky, but they are for my masters eyes only so remember that!

Sunday

• Report Day - This is the day where I have to tally up all my tasks. Depending on how well I did, I will either get rewarded or punished.

So here is the total tally for this week!

• 6 15-Minute Hands-Free Anal Training Sessions

• 6 Worship Sessions

• 12 Explicit Pictures of Myself Sent

• One Photo of My Ball with Writing "Property of ShellShock" next to it

My Unofficial Score: -2

Because I forgot my tasks yesterday, that make my score a negative -2, of course that means I will be punished unless Master is mercifully and add bonus point to my score for something I did this week.

I'll end up pinning @Shellshock official score in the comments below when he gets to it.

Personal Comments about this Week

Honestly I've had a lot of fun.

As someone who has been deep in the closet for all of my life this has been a great way to express myself with having to worry about family or colleagues finding out.

Maybe it's just because my job and college workload have been easy this time of year but I've looked forward to completing the tasks each day, and we have more kinky stuff planned in the future!

Anyways, feel free to ask me or @Shellshock anything about our relationship, in the comments below, and can one of the mod like @gaslamper or @Aevann please pin this for being the FIRST ever official rdrama BDSM relationship .

Behold, motherfricker, and seethe in the fact that you cannot hold love in your heart as I tirelessly do every waking hour for my pets and loved ones

Something Something spooky Saint Francis coming in nicely toobz

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I've been in heck all day, how are ya'll?

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Silly baby was yawning while resting with me. She's so precious

Take good care, friends!

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Take care, friends. May you experience peace tonight

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Shout out to all of my !dixie brothers whose lives are also about to get fricked up for the next week or so lol. I'm directly in the path of this thing. Could still bend around us but we'll see!

Trying to go to Walmar at 5pm has just about sent me over

This isn't even a big town.

Traffic lights with 5 minute cycles

It's still 90

Parking lot is full

Everyone's brown

I just want to go home

Like this shit just does not work with >5-10k ppl in one place

I don't know how you citycels cope bc this makes me want to lower a concrete sarcophagus over my bulldozer, never to leave alive.

Anyway I tried to open an image from an email and these were the options my phone gave me

I thog that was funny and remembering it has made my evening slightly tolerable

I'm so happy, Sheila's amazing! I love this sweet girl!

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I knew this guy. He was an interesting guy, but mainly what he had was being interesting. He knew all these people all around town and was almost beloved in a way - most everybody would say about him, "Oh, I love that guy." He was clever and artistic and just hung around the art and music scene but knew a lot of people across different avenues. I used to talk to him sometimes either at parties or just hanging out at somebody's house. He and a lot of people said I was like him, but I didn't like that and disagreed, though I think we both took something of a shine to each other and would eventually gravitate if we were bumming the same street. Never explicitly hung out with him, always wondered if I should have. He kind of wanted to.

I drifted apart from a lot of people over the years, but a while back hit up 2 married close friends I hadn't seen in a long while. Serendipitously, they were in a bad way and told me John had shot himself the night before. Wild timing. I gave as many condolences as you can give over the phone and texts about a satellite friend to people you haven't spoken to in 2 years. We told some "john" stories to each other, caught up a bit, they seemed heartbroken. A little pissy at me at the end for being absent. I hit up 2 other old friends and asked about John, and they had a similar spiel. I looked on social media and saw a go fund me for the dude's mom for funeral expenses. Everybody commenting and telling stories, saw some local hipster website obituary. I don't know how many went to the funeral, but enough people donated and there was clearly a buzz, this guy would be missed right sure.

I couldn't help but laugh. When I knew him and all of them, nobody could fricking stand him. From what I'd heard and seen, most of the stories people told were from years before, a lot of people hadn't talked to him much recently, which matched what I knew. The guy was clever and funny, but kind of dumb, unskilled, poor. For every act of empathy and good heartedness, he was always letting someone down or ratfricking them. He was always doing some sketchy BPD shit someone was complaining about - some drug drama, some it's always sunny money making scheme, overstaying his welcome everywhere, getting in little tiffs with people, for a bit he had some weird obsession/relationship with some young guy who was allegedly 19 but maybe 18 but maybe 17.

The very first day I met him I had this weird thought, "That guy is going to kill himself one day." His name came up earlier because someone had given him money to buy them coke but had been ghosting them, and hours later he arrives (after most everyone is gone, particularly the dude looking for him), all fricked up hitting some high and low emotions in the same sentences, giddy at first, then eventually telling a story about how he had a court date because he just got in a fight with some dude on the street over one of them talking shit about the other's driving. By the end of the story he was bawling, but perked up and introduced himself to me. I entirely understood the feeling, but was getting real mixed vibes from the guy. Later I was assured he was the coolest dude ever and close friend to my close friends.

He always wanted to hang out another time whenever I saw him, but wasn't pushy about it. I never followed through because of those vibes. I actually had a dream near when I first met him where he drove me to a party in the sketchiest part of town, ditched me, and finally picked me up as I was walking home, but kept coming onto me borderline sexual assault and getting real apologetic, but doing it again. I told my friend and he didn't understand that it was just a dream at first because that could have been something John did. One time we were hanging out and I know me and John and this other dude discussed eventually killing ourselves when we got too old. Looking back, I think John and I explored the conversation further without the other dude, but I don't think it's like no one knew it was on John's mind. Maybe not, maybe I was the only one and talked him into suicide years before. That same night I remember he told me he really just wanted a good relationship, just something nice for 2-5 years, love like, longer the better, but realistic knowing it wouldn't work out because that shit doesn't. I respected that. But this did concern the 18? year old so, vibes still there.

But like I said, everybody fricking couldn't stand this guy. I was always told never to share my drugs with him - not because of protecting him from any habit, but he'd use it as an excuse to stay longer wherever he was. Every conversation that involved him was "I love John, but" this sketchy thing, this annoying thing. Someone was always avoiding him, he was always avoiding someone. I said he knew all sorts of different people, and some of those were cops, people he'd known before they were cops, and most everyone considered this useful because he allegedly could check somebody's narc status, but at the same time half of everyone figured he was a fricking narc, was weird. I suspected he didn't even know cops and maybe had access to some HR background check system at his job that he lied about. The cheap hipster area he lived in was becoming more crime ridden and shitty. He was getting old, in his early/mid 30s when I last saw him, probably approaching 40s when he popped.

I like to think that my relationship with him was more honest, arms distance in the first place. Almost like I knew him better than a lot of other people who claimed they were close. I wonder if maybe I started hanging out with him he could have been on a better path or I'd be part of some crazy stories where he keeps the party going by bringing some basically homeless people into his house for a musical jam session and is gifted a gold ring by one of the weirder ones. But what I kept thinking about is, what would I realistically say to say he shouldn't kill himself. The best I could come up with was that he should help take care of his shitty alkie mom. He painted a really cool picture of himself while he was on acid once and could play some musical instruments, but he was ultimately mediocre and uncreative in most ways, and more importantly unmotivated. Nobody fricking liked him. They liked the idea of him, but nobody could fricking stand him. I know that was lonely, I very much understood, but he did it to himself. He wasn't going to suddenly become an upright citizen and get some kind of certification or job advancement and improve his life and live in a nicer neighborhood and get high less and be friend that people with kids can even hang out with once a year. He didn't want that. It doesn't come across as some romantic "the candle that burns twice as bright" shit, because at the end of the day, he was kind of an unhappy loser.

I don't have an opinion on whether he should have done it, but I got all these wild feelings watching all these people who didn't want anything to do with the guy bemoan his passing. Oh, he shouldn't have done it. Oh, there was so much more to live for. It's great that he was a fricking legend I guess, but he lived his life sad and alone and fricking killed himself. I wondered what people actually think of me.

I don't know the point in telling this story. I haven't had anyone else to tell it to. Some anhero talk recently. I suppose I don't think anyone should kill themselves. I imagine some dramafoid meeting John in an inpatient center and mentally adding him as some quirky cool friend that they don't actually talk to. (Not that they should.) I don't know what he would have thought of this site, would probably depend on his mood that day, whether he loved or hated it. John is a dead though.

Sheila's coming home this afternoon! The vet even said they might owe me money the luck of the dragon is with me this year!

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I am sick now. My employers would only foot the bill for an economy class return ticket- would travelling business class have made any difference, both in terms of avoiding Slavs and being far enough away from carriers to not get infected?

The kittens are a huge handful without their momma to ground them, but they're very happy to play in the bedroom while supervised.

Miss Sheila's surgeons are in love with that "feral" girl, and her main surgeon even asked if I'd tell him about the kittens! He said if they have half her disposition, they'd be perfect pets

She's apparently a perfect patient, and does not apparently require a drainage tube. Therefore, she may come home a day early. We shall see.

Thank you all for loving Sheila and the babies. And thank you, darling Mister Man, for letting me sleep some of my covid off today.

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I built her out of the old Halloween coffin I used for a few years. The rest is pallet wood. During the day it's grey but at night she's hit with blacklight and gives off an erie glow. I'm currently working on the Kraken that's taking her to the briny deep. I've dubbed her The Mollusk both because of this year's theme and the Ween album.

FRICKING MUZZIES!!! !chuds

My abs hurt from hurling and I cut off my beard 5 hours in, also put my rosary in the wash by accident with the sheets and it broke (@Corinthian ). When will muzzies stop persecuting us Christians in Europe? !catholics

Historians will describe this as the inciting incident for the rise of the far right in my house when analyzing the writing of my manifesto "Mein Kebapf".

Before / after:

The girl will not likely pass. But everything is "going to go" near the wound site. She will be held for four+ days and the cost for this emergency trip, should it go to plan, will verge on $7,000. Added to the $5k I've spent on her so far and I'm up a fricking creek here!

I'll probably be offline seething. Pray for my momma Sheila...

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Pray pray pray pray omg prayyy

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These are today's vibes

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Sorry @gaslamper that this isn't a vlog, but I feel as if this is enough of a mini-blog to at least get something hopefully.

A lot of you have been following my recent obsession with getting a chastity cages, well I finally got one and can give you first hand experience on how it feels.

So I ordered my chastity cage from LockedInLust, which was recommended to me by @xa15428

I ended up choosing this one!

It's a cute pink resin cage that they recommend for beginner, only downside was it only came in two sizes, normal and small, can you guess which one I chose

It's was $50ish dollars, $65 total since I payed for 4-7 day shipping.

It came in 7 day exactly, which I was pretty happy about since I assumed 4-7 day meant business days only.

The packaging was very discrete, while the mailing stuff wasn't super professionally taped on, it didn't give away anything and just said it was "plastic parts for assembly. So no weird looks at the post office when I picked it up

It came with 4 different base rings sizes, and the cage itself, alongside 2 keys. It also came in this very pretty drawstring bag which I am still using to hold the extra base rings.

Getting this thing on is simple but a pain in the butt for me personally. If you don't know, this is how you have to put it on.

First you have to put the base ring through your ballsack, which can take a bit of fiddling around but isn't too bad.

Then you have to take you flaccid peepee and fold it into yourself so you can have it pass through the base ring and into the base ring, which can be tough if your like me and get turned on by the sight of a chastity cage.

After that you can put the 2nd "cage" part of the device on the base ring and you use a locking mechanism (key for most cases) to "fuse" these two together and create an non-removeable cage.

But the issue with the last part is you have to do so much manhandling with your peepee that by the time you get it though the base ring, you have played with it so much that it's not completely soft and you have to wait for it to get flaccid again for a second time.

It took me roughly 2 hours to get my cage on properly the first time, since I keep getting to hasty and impatient when it came to waiting for it to be flaccid enough to lock, and keep not putting enough time and care into properly getting the base ring on the full way

Overall once I got this sucker on though I am very happy with how it feels, it is noticeable enough to constantly remind me of it, but not heavy enough to feel like it burdens me. In fact I feel like after I while I may forget it's on lol.

Anyways, the hottest part of the cage right now for me is actually having to pee in it, since it feels so humiliating and different from what I am use to, who knows, I may have to start sitting down to do it.

As for my plans with how long I want to keep it on, it's simple, as long as possible.

I would still have to take it off the shave every week (thanks Native American genetics), but besides that I want to learn how to c*m in it, especially without any toys.

I have also brought up the possibility of a virtual keyholder for my cage, which could be a user in this very forum ,

@Shellshock would have the first dibs on it though since he asked me first but I haven't confirmed if they actually want to and I have no idea what that would entail yet (would I have to do tasks to get unlocked for a bit?)

Edits keep breaking! I meant to put this as proof!

I feel sad and sick. My head hurts and my body has low grade aches. I feel depressed, which is weird because I don't suffer from depression or any mental illness, and I'm naturally a positive person.

I don't know if the headache and body aches is making me feel depressed, but I feel like crying and feel like what's the point of life right now. Like why bother with anything at all? I don't want to die I just suddenly feel like life is very pointless and gay. I want out of this lame simulation.

edit 3 hours later: my headache feels even worse now,

Sick as heck and going to work today after an almost all-nighter. Fml.

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I'm sick send maids

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