In short, I "used to" be a trans guy. I still feel that I'm male but detransitioned. I'm much happier now that I'm, in a sense, re-closeted.
Edit for idiots: Would you rather wear a hot costume that nobody knows is a costume, or have everyone interpret your real self as a weird costume?
I'm really feminine (I have the facial proportions of a snapchat filter minus the bloated lips) & I didn't want to be a hypermasculine guy since male fashion kind of sucks (especially because I'm poor) so that made it really difficult to feel happy with myself because I either was dressed in a way I disliked (trying my best at passing without regard for my own style) or was getting misgendered because I was dressing in the way I liked. No matter how hard I tried to pass I was still misgendered anyway, usually being mistaken as a thief (baggy clothes.) I was even referred to correctly as "sir" once by an old southern man, but then he saw that I was wearing an earring & said "oh, sorry; MISS."
I was mid-teens then & my mother was supportive up until the topic of getting hormone blockers/HRT. I realized it would take years for me to begin any sort of gender reaffirming practices, & even longer for those gender reaffirming practices to actually garner results in the way I was percieved by others. Then I figured... what does it matter what other people think my gender is? You don't know the genitals of anyone you talk to unless you've seen them naked, cis or otherwise. If people want to percieve me as female, that's on them for not being close enough with me to know what my true identity is. I like feeling good about myself, not struggling emotionally, mentally, & physically for the validation of others.
Also my tits are great & it'd be a shame to get rid of em 
Is anyone else in the same boat or am I just an overcomplicated freakazoid? I just thought it'd be interesting to see other people's reaction to my logic. Sorry I'm a "yapper."
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people like you make me sad
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Wait so you're a big titty tomboy in current year+9?
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Bascially.
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prove it
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in what aspect do you feel/want to be male?
also
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I just feel male. Presenting as a girl feels like I'm in really convincing drag; I don't identify with being a female except for the things I've had to experience due to being in a female body, I like the aesthetics of a female body (not for me personally but in general) and that's the extent of it.
Key point you're leaving out is "especially because I'm poor" on the male fashion topic lol (also good male fashion leans feminine/borrows from female fashion a lot of the time, again not helping me pass.)
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what does it even mean to feel male
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I don't know, you just do, hence why I didn't bother trying to go into detail. It's less that you "feel like a gender" and more that you just know the one you've been assigned doesn't quite fit, I guess.
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I mean samsies, doood.
@WhiteWomanShill, feeling male is soo complex, I can't even. Like my vibe is not feminine - Even though I'm afab?? And a lot of people around me say I exude male energy. I can't really elaborate but I just do. I hope this helps you, bro. 
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I never said anything about "vibe," "energy," or that "feeling male is complex," you're putting words in my mouth. Also you mention being afab as if that contradicts being a trans male/it dictates your "vibe..."
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it's normal to feel weird or not quite right
it's normal to not fit into gender stereotypes or w/e
i'm a dude but have have always had long hair
plenty of times in my young teens i had other people at first mistake me as a girl
at the time i thought it was embarrassing, but now i look back on it and it's nbd
or better than that, its funny
Anyways, your moms right. Puberty blocker carry immense risks that are irreversible and will damage your health permanently (brittle bones, increased cancer risk, etc).
Dress however you want, like whatever music you want, do whatever you want. You don't need medical intervention to do that.
It's okay to just be kind of a weirdo or whatever, it's not a medical condition.
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So in absence of feeling like a woman that makes you feel like a man? I feel like pooners and non-binaries feel that they have to/are pressured to perform femininity.
Also men's fashion is way cheaper. Pink tax is r-slurred on clothing for women.
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do you experience phantom peepee sensations like some people do? my friend had a dog that was spayed too early and would often lift her leg to pee (like a boy dog, while girl dogs squat) and I wondered if phantom peepee sensations were the cause.
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Yes but very rarely. I didn't actually know this was a thing/there was a name for this, just thought I was losing it.
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How much yaoi shite did you consume just wondering?
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In what sense do you feel “male”? You enjoy the benefits of being perceived feminine and have no issue with your body then in what aspect are you a man? I'm curious bc nothing I read in your post comes off masculine or intending to
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Just because I have no issue reaping the benefits of a female body does not mean I enjoy being a female. I cannot be male in a way I'm happy with. Sorry I don't... type... "validly" enough for you...? I've met plenty of cis dudes who type just like me.
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I want to be 300ft tall with a peepee that shoots fire. I want to slumber for 1000 years, awaken under a blood moon and slaughter 30% of the world.
Sadly, this is not a rational dream and we all must do the best with what we have, in the short time given to us.
Best of luck.
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...That's my point. Thanks.
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Hey, I saw that you just joined rdrama and a group of people who hate me are trying to smear my name by calling me a date male feminist. I just wanted to let you know that it's not true. If you want all the receipts proving it they're right here.
The TL;DR is that I hooked up with one of the hot girls on rdrama, and since I was twice her age, a lot of the guys here who wanted to bang her got jealous and assumed that the only way I could have managed that was by raping her, even though she herself said both before and afterwards that it was all completely consensual. So now that you're the new hot girl on rdrama, I guess they think that I'm going to somehow seduce you into flying all the way across the country (or some crazy shit like that) to hook up with me and they're trying to talk shit about me to make sure that doesnt happen. I don't understand it either, but I just wanted to let you know that I'm a nice guy and I hope you'll look at the evidence and make up your own mind instead of listening to all the jealous haters.
Anyway, with that little intro out of the way, welcome to rdrama! The culture's a little rough here and you're probably going to get tons of requests to •show boobsU but if you talk to some of the women here first before engaging with all the creepy dudes, they'll give you some good advice to avoid stalkers and predators. Or (If you haven't been scared off by the rumor mill) you're welcome to ask me and I'm happy to help.
Just out of curiosity, how did you find this place?
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No peepee no buy
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