I was inspired to dig around for some delicious downvote trauma from @JimieWhales comment since I hadn't in a while and found a day old downvote trauma thread in my favorite girlboss sub, /r/CPTSD

I know I'm asking for downvotes for this one, so this time I'm prepared lol.

Like you just poured your entire list of traumas and coping mechanisms into one post, you allow your heart to just let everything out, raw and uncensored, entirely of how you feel. You're sad, you needed to let it out, so you did. You're in a weak place right now.

You upload it, and the first reaction you get is that you're indirectly told that it's stupid or doesn't matter so people hit the dislike button. At least, to me, that's how it feels. Which is fair, not everyone on Earth is going to approve of me as a person or who I am or what I do. There are plenty of people on this planet who hate me. But honestly it just re-enables the notion that my trauma really is my fault, that I am a bad person, and sometimes I don't know wether it's a safe place to ramble or not if someone was so quick to say my issues were invalid in a sub that was literally created exactly for what the subject matter was about.

This is honestly though, with everything I ever post or upload. One Downvote, I delete it. One dislike on a YouTube video, I delete it. I don't know why I'm so sensitive, but one singular hint of someone disapproving my issues or me really expressing myself just sours my mood and I just go silent. My brain makes a big deal out of the most trivial things, even down to some stranger across the country who doesn't even know me judging who I am or what I say. Is this a trauma thing? Does anyone else deal with this? Why?? Why am I so darn sensitive to every little thing?

I think some of it is just trolling. When I sort by new there's been a few times that I've seen several posts in a row that have been downvoted to zero, like someone has just worked their way down the list and hit the down arrow.

Oh wow, that's such a piece of shit thing for someone to do on a sub like this...

Most of the time I post it and then immediately delete it because maybe someone will argue with me.

Years ago, I deleted my whole account for a downvote on a sensitive reply I made. And yes, definitely a trauma thing for me. Perfectionism can be brutal.

Upvoting to counter all the downvotes :) are you familiar with Rejection Sensitivity Dysphoria?

time to add a new thing to the CTPSD/CFS/POTS/fibromyalgia/chronic lyme/long covid list

Decided to dig deeper into seeing who you're causing downvote trauma to when you're irresponsible with your heckin' downdoots.

Claims her dad is a narcissist for wanting to spend time with her. Mentions autism, anxiety, depression

Calls her mom a narcissist for not having enough money to pay a vet bill for a marsey with a broken leg

“If I had the number of chromosomes of how many times my posts have been automatically removed, I'd be an autist..”

Calls her mom a narcissist for refusing to play taxi for therapist appointment

“Is It Normal To "Seek Attention" So To Speak, Due To C-PTSD?”

Another example of her dad being a narcissist and giving her CPTSD for telling her about Santa Claus

How Do I Know If I'm Actually Having Depressive Thoughts Or If I'm Just Being An Attention Whore? (self.CPTSD)

Upset that her narcissistic parents aren't accepting of her art

“Does Anybody Have a Food Disorder or Eating Problem Due To Your Trauma?”

“Some random person on the street today shouted "FAT B-WORD" at me from the back seat of their car today.”

If there's one thing we all share in common, it's that we need food to live. Food is our sustenance and without it, we perish. Some of us eat too little and become skinny. Others eat too much and become fat. Regardless, at the end of the day, we're all eating.

Children, especially young infants, cannot obtain their own food. Hence, it is the job of the parents to ensure that the child receives the sustence they require. Unfortunately, this isn't always the case and there are some parents who abandon their responsibility. Today I'll briefly discuss two cases of parents who let their children starve to death. My writing won't be all too animated, and you'll find out why in the conclusion.

The Deadly Vacation

Who doesn't like a good vacation? It's a chance to get away from the stresses of life, see new places, and maybe even enjoy a holiday fling. But what if the stressor is your own child? Suddenly, a vacation becomes a dark deed.

Kristel Candelario wanted to go on vacation. But her pesky 16 month old child Jailyn would take the fun out of it. So, she decided to leave the child in the crib while she jetted off to Detroit and Puerto Rico for ten days. While Kristel was on the beach, Jailyn defacated all over herself and ate the waste as her only source of sustenance. Of course, this turned the situation deadly and the child perished. After the ten day long holiday, Kristel returned home to a poop-covered dead child. She changed the child's clothing before calling 911, claiming to have found the child not breathing.

Of course, upon investigation, it was found that she had abandoned her baby who starved to death. Upon receiving her life sentence, the judge described Kristel's actions as the ultimate act of betrayal. Do you agree? What do you think was going on in Kristel's mind?

The Dirty Home

Seth Welch and Tatiana Fusari had a child named Mary Welch. They did not treat the child very well. CPS found traces of THC in the child, suggesting that the parents were blazing around the infant which is no laughing matter.

Mary was heavily malnourished but the parents refused to seek medical assistance, citing religious reasons. They say God dwells in a cleanly home. Their house must have been the domain of Satan because it was found to have roaches and vermin and mould. For unknown reasons, the parents witheld food from the baby. The likely cause is that they were too wrapped up in their drug-fueled life.

Eventually, Mary succumbed to malnourishment, and the pair were charged with negligent homicide and were sentenced to life. Prior to sentencing, when Seth was told he was facing a life sentence, he made the soyjack face.

This is no laughing matter however.

Conclusion

I can't sleep. I've stopped taking benzos and I feel sick. My head is pounding, I feel like puking and I am constantly moody and agitated. I feel like I need benzos like an infant needs breastmilk. I started playing Red Dead Redemption today. Very cool, but also very slow-paced. I like Bonny McFarlane and walking around the ranch. I think it captures the "Western" aesthetic better than its successor.

Just to further emphasize the level of genius that is on my case, I want you all to know that they were warned about me on like page 3 or 4 of my thread. My thread now has 19 pages.

They are now looking through my twitter and think I have something to hide.

I did not delete that tweet. These people are honestly just so stupid that they don't realize that posts and replies are in a different section on Xitter.

https://twitter.com/_Ghost_Poster/status/1780086603936923777

My post is quite clearly still up.

https://kiwifarms.st/threads/it-is-time-to-leave-elaine-alone-she-is-taken-now.189361/page-19

Also they have been keeping my thread alive for 12 hours now without any further input from me. I'm not replying again until my thread dies. I hope they enjoy my tweets.

Why the Fed won't cut rates

There's a new storm on the horizon. But this is the kind of storm that brings relief on a hot summer evening. There is the scenario of a high for long soft landing on the horizon. A world in which rates stay high, but there's sufficient resilience in the economy to tolerate these high rates. About a 30% probability on this high for long soft landing, combined with the other scenarios of boil the frog with high rates as well, we see about a 75% chance that rates just stay higher than what is currently anticipated.

In terms of the CPI report from March, it obviously came in a bit firmer than expected. And so you're running at rates that are still, a bit uncomfortably high for the Fed. But more importantly, Fed officials had looked at the January and February numbers as maybe kind of an outlier, a bit of a one-off, probably a little bit stronger with underlying trend was. And so, another strong print for March certainly undermines that view and potentially shifts the Fed a little more cautious direction.

And obviously that's what's been reflected in market pricing and taking out some of the cuts that we've had. We're down to, atm, fewer than two cuts by year-end price for the market right now.

The two pieces the Fed had been kind of separating out between housing and the super core. Both of them have been firmer than expected. Housing is basically kind of moving sideways, 0.4 plus per month.

Investors have been expecting it to be gradually cooling a bit more. And the big one obviously is the super core. The three-month run rate of that thing is now above 8%.Thus that's a really strong signal that you've got some meaningful stickiness yet in services inflation. And that's just not the US.

Two points make a line, three points make a trend, and you've got strong growth, not much delinquency and Labor markets are super strong. Why shouldn't Powell just look at this and saying, you know what, the Fed's not done here.

At minimum, they should not be cutting at all. Maybe they should be even hiking. Is there even a counter to that?

Japan

Institutional clients have a very positive outlook on the Japanese economy because they believe that Japan exiting a deflationary era. And you're starting to see things like very tight labor market, higher wage pressure, so real inflationary forces come to the forefront.

Emerging Markets (Interesting counterbalance)

So investors did shift their bias from a bullish one to a more neutral one on both EM local bonds. And currencies off the back of yesterday's US CPI print. After arguing for some time that so long as the Fed is cutting rates, the timing didn't really matter all that much.

But if the market is confident of being in a gradual cutting cycle, that alone would be sufficient to help emerging market assets deliver decent positive returns. And that also explains why, despite a pretty decent repricing in the US yield curve lately. Back in January, markets were pricing in over 100 basis points of cuts.

And now it's far less. EM assets overall held in well on the view that the regime was still one of rate cuts and people can debate the details of timing and overall magnitude. But now, the US has had three consecutive upside surprises to CPI inflation.

That opens the door for a more bearish potential scenario and regime for fixed income assets more generally. So not saying that's the base case now, but clearly the probability of something like the market having to think about no cuts is increasing. So it makes sense to step aside a little bit and let the dust settle on this one.

At EM local bonds, if you look at them inflation adjusted, in real yield terms, those EM real yields are actually the highest since 2009 at the moment, given the lower relative EM inflation. EM currencies are also generally cheaper. If you look in long-term versus the dollar, looking at how EMs been lagging some of these global cyclical upturns at the moment, the valuation side of things is probably not in a bad place right now. And if you look at EMFX risk appetite index, which is good to follow, it's been sort of oscillating around zero (not as of 12 hours ago though lol when I started writing this. More on that below) as well, not showing any significant positions.

If you look at sort of global investors, if you just take flows as a metric of their sentiment and how they've been seeing the asset class, they really have not been putting any money into EM bond funds. In fact, quite the opposite. So far this year, there has been 10 billion of outflows. That's on the back of 34 billion of outflows last year.

And that was on the back of 90 billion of outflows in 2022. So it just doesn't feel like the global investor has been piling into EM. In fact, the opposite, they've, on the margin, been withdrawing money from the asset class.

So it's important to recognize that emerging markets have their own inflation story. It's no longer being driven by a common global factor, as was the case back in 21 or 22. And the contrast this week between the downside surprise in inflation in Mexico, which is the EM country with the greatest trade and economic linkages to the US versus the upside surprise here in the US, that was quite telling about the sort of independent monetary policy and inflation trajectories that we see in emerging markets.

So, in an environment where the market is questioning the Fed's ability to cut at all against the backdrop of firming global growth is not necessarily a bad one for credit markets as recession risks are being seen as fallen and certainly that's what US economists think. But it's going to depend which bit of the credit markets and that's been our theme for a long time. Fundamentally, there's also quite a lot of idiosyncratic driver in those, let's call them post-distressed EM sovereigns who are coming off the back of a couple of years of really special situations distress,[COVID and CHINESE BRI DEBT] some going through restructuring, some narrowly avoided it.

And those are drivers which are just, it's a very big cyclical driver coming off the back of a distress period, which is probably not going to be affected as much by even a rethink of this fed path as the market's going through.

What do I think?

So probably sticking with those post-distressed, very high yield type of countries in sovereigns is probably right. For the lower spread portion, you could see people start to look at it and ask and ask an environment where core rates are going to stay higher for longer, where the value proposition is in there.

EMFX with high yields as outflows increase as FED continues to hold rates still or maybe even hike is a good strategy. 70/30 is also good. 70 in US money markets, 30 in EMFX money markets.

Notes for further Study:

https://www.xtb.com/en/market-analysis/risk-appetite-sinks-as-risks-hit-the-market

2015 paper from Morgan Stanley: https://www.morganstanley.com/im/publication/insights/investment-insights/ii_emergingmarketattractive_en.pdf

https://www.bloomberg.com/news/articles/2024-04-12/emerging-market-currencies-hit-two-month-low-on-flight-from-risk

!math !r-slurs

Caution: ALL INVESTMENT ADVISE IS OPINION. MARKETS ARE RISKY. INVEST AT YOUR OWN RISK. I BEAR NO RESPONSIBILITY IN ANY OF YOUR INVESTMENTS.

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So why not get a pro-Israel moderator? (6)

If you guys are this upset about the modding here, just go to the other sub without the underscore. You'll love it there, trust me (-7)

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Go to r/israelpalestine if you want your own circle jerk (-3)

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I had a comment deleted for saying "Are you being serious right now" because it's a "personal attack," meanwhile we have pro-Palestinians running around saying shit like "Israel is the fourth Reich" and "Ziorats."Stand by for this thread to be deleted on trumped up charges by the way. (8)

Like I said in another thread, I was temporarily banned for saying Palestine maintains a male feminist system in response to someone saying Israel maintains an apartheid system.The moderation bias is obvious. (0)

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When I'm in a pro-pal environment, if they deny or justify 10/7, I certainly challenge and debate them on that.Are you familiar with the concept of structural oppression? One side here has all the power. (2)

Structural oppression is a relatively broad term that can be applied to almost all countries in the world today. Minorities are either subjected to it, or subjecting majorities to it. While it is prevalent in Israel, it is not an Israeli thing. Neighbouring countries exercise oppression in different ways.One side holding all the power is simply not true. You put as 0 or 1. Binary. Israel holds more power, yes, and is an oppressor yes, but the process of how we reached this current balance of power cannot be taken out of context, or to ignore Palestinian (Gaza and West Bank) use of power, retributions, or a refusal to ultimately accept and claim independence from 67 to this day. It has mostly been a zero sum game, from unrecognising Israel and refusing to establish Palestine unless it is in its entirety, driving the Zionists out, or simultaneously agreing to a 2SS while refusing to any compromise in the issue of Palestinian right of return, which is kind of a backdoor way of destabli... (1)

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Of course it's inflammatory. It's also accurate and just as aggressive as what Israel is called on this sub on a daily basis. Like I just said, the NY Times and UN have both reported about the sexual torture undergone by Israeli hostages in Gaza. We've had users, including mods, accusing Israel of raping child hostages to death, with no evidence of course. Why is that OK but my statement isn't? (7)

I don't doubt sexual violence happening. There are several gruesome and credible stories. However I don't think there's enough evidence to call it systematic. Pointing out the suffering of hostages is valid and the right thing to do. That certainly isn't okay. It's a pretty wild allegation and would need good evidence. Seems like deflection and demonization to me. Trotting out r*pe allegations against Israeli government forces is of course a distraction and false equivalence. In situations involving violence and strong power imbalances, some sexual violence is bound to happen. None of it is acceptable though. That said evidence for sexual violence is often difficult to come by, especially in a chaotic war situation. Every side will also want to call out the other side's atrocities and play down their own. I don't know why it's so hard for people to condemn all sexual violence regardless of who the victim is. (1)

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The New York Times and the UN have both reported their findings about the sexual assaults and sexual torture inflicted on Israelis. I thought this sub was all about the free speech and free dialogue. I'm criticizing Palestine. I'm not saying anything about Palestinians and Arabs in general. Is criticizing Israel attacking Jews? Of course not. (0)

"Male feminist entity" is not a real thing and plays on racist stereotypes against Palestinians. This is not based on facts, and has nothing to do with the heavily discredit NYT article that never once even calls Palestine a "male feminist entity." What you are doing is nothing more than applying racist stereotypes.If someone was playing off Jewish stereotypes and making racist statements, of course that would be unacceptable. And we have removed many comments that did so. Similarly, playing off racist stereotypes and implying that Palestinians are some terrorist male feminist barbarians will not be tolerated. (6)

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IF a guy has a real problem I will listen to him for hours, days if he needs it. And I have.

But let's be real sometimes guys they weaponize their trauma. Or they whine about nothing forever.

Despite claiming to be totally over us for real he still regularly stalks the site

Also reminder of why he's gone right now:

@Aevann consider making defunct badges (fish, allseeing, and unblockable in the near future) distinct in some way like grayed out art

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At NPR, some of Berliner's colleagues have weighed in online against his claim that the network has focused on diversifying its workforce without a concomitant commitment to diversity of viewpoint. Recently retired Chief Executive John Lansing has referred to this pursuit of diversity within NPR's workforce as its "North Star," a moral imperative and chief business strategy.

In his essay, Berliner tagged the strategy as a failure, citing the drop in NPR's broadcast audiences and its struggle to attract more Black and Latinx listeners in particular.

"During most of my tenure here, an open-minded, curious culture prevailed. We were nerdy, but not knee-jerk, activist, or scolding," Berliner writes. "In recent years, however, that has changed."

Berliner writes, "For NPR, which purports to consider all things, it's devastating both for its journ*lism and its business model."

Berliner has singled out coverage of several issues dominating the 2020s for criticism, including trans rights, the Israel-Hamas war and COVID.

Uh oh, he

Several NPR journ*lists told me they are no longer willing to work with Berliner as they no longer have confidence that he will keep private their internal musings about stories as they work through coverage.

Some colleagues drafted a letter to Maher and NPR's chief news executive, Edith Chapin, seeking greater clarity on NPR's standards for its coverage and the behavior of its journ*lists — clearly pointed at Berliner.

They got together and wrote a letter to the executives to get him to stop being a chud to them

!historychads weigh in?

In China there are 104 males for every 100 females. The mainstream media has written a million articles about this gender gap, it’s a huge problem!

In Canada there are 109 young men for every 100 young women. The mainstream media has written zero articles about this gender gap. pic.twitter.com/bGlkocC4Xt

— Chris Brunet (@realChrisBrunet) April 8, 2024

How did this even happen? According to this random statistics site, immigration for men and women have been mostly equal throughout the years:

But there is a significant difference (11%) in male and female international study permit holders, most of which will attain permanent resident status after their diplomas are completed. Who would have thought the mostly-unregulated backdoor immigration method would cause issues in the future

Soon we'll have hundreds of thousands of currycels unable to find a jeetess mate.

It's important to note that the gender gap data only includes ages 20-29, so the overall gender gap is probably still lower than China's. However, the gap will trend towards that percentage in the next few decades.

I made 4 more too. this is fun.

‼️Full short story comic‼️

Big And Beautiful
(12 pages)

A story about a woman trying to survive in a fatphobic patriarchal hell world.

👇👇Full story below👇👇

Page 1-4. pic.twitter.com/xvx4UkCDTx

— Frank Edward (@smackfrank) December 16, 2023

Op says 300 sqft apartments are bad, shit flinging in the comments

!leafs how much do you hate Toronto/Vancouver renters?

https://en.aeroflap.com.br/royal-jordanian-airlines-speaks-out-about-riot-with-armed-security-on-its-flight/

Apparently this happened months ago, and the gentlemen in question were protesting a mid flight destination change, it's muddled but I think it was emergency .

https://old.reddit.com/r/CrazyFrickingVideos/comments/1c54urk/air_marshall_pulls_out_gun_after_passengers/?sort=controversial

https://en.aeroflap.com.br/royal-jordanian-airlines-speaks-out-about-riot-with-armed-security-on-its-flight/

https://twitter.com/DrDhruvchauhan/status/1779817752485831087

the comments here are some of the most callous I've ever seen

Because finding a new profession is outta the question?

It's India. If you drop out of residency, you're begging to be hit by your parents

From what I've seen, it's absolutely normal for residency to be crazy and stressful everywhere. This just seems like a goofy stunt.

Here are a few very common posts from /r/residency over the past few days for reference.

Are residents bullied by NPs and Nurses or other folks?

Burned out/extreme tiredness

Operating on 40+ hours of sleep deprivation should NOT be a pre-requisite to being a surgeon

She’s pretty wym pic.twitter.com/a3ljCBAuBK

— ☆🄿🄸🄴 ☆ (on Break)(not anymore) (@Artiah669) April 12, 2024

!macacos !soyteens

Tried my best to doodle their pinkie! Any criticisms is welcome to this doodle and I don't mind updating it

woa this might be even worse

"she looks ugly" and it just looks like a regular person youd see in real life

i want a detailed description of whats supposedly ugly ab this design w out them being colorist

well..no! never seen anyone like this in my life lololol

have you considered talking to real people instead of playing royal high all day

31.5k posts telling ppl to go outside insane projection

Literally

edtwt stays online and inside too much looking at pinterest girls they forgot what other people also look like

Is this the female equivalent of accusing people of being a porn addict?

Do you live in Chernobyl?

It looks like a racist Wojack dude what are you talking about

Incomprehensible woahjacks from Bahia, Brazil

bro living in ohio

Normalise having average looking characters

normalise not looking like a runway model

girl looks so freaking happy and that's one of the many things that makes a person pretty, imo

The issue is that artists make inclusive POC and LGBT characters ugly as frick while the generic cis white straight characters are pinnacles of beauty.

This literally feels borderline racist like... No, that's not an average person look. That looks like some sort of wojack or minstrel cartoon ☠️☠️

literally. she IS pretty. i saw people jumping thru hoops in the replies trying to make this problematic which is really funny

She looks like a racist wojack made by some neonazi on 4chan

This design looks cute @RobotinTheVoid

^^ Twitter needs to stfu and stop bullying a child

the mlp fandom when artists ' human versions of magical rainbow ponies look like a regular human and not a supermodel ( the whole point of the show is friendship and accepting people for who they are )

Darn apparently every character ever needs to follow strict societal beauty standards rooted in white supremacy….

she's so pretty, i have a friend who looks like her

hope your friend doesn't know you think they look like this.

God forbid a black girl have braces ig??? seriously what is their issue

Babe its the… face….

nah learning that the artist is white made this whole discussion flip for me

Ok but that specifically looks like satire...

as a black girl, it's really aggravating when people draw us in these..unsightly ways and then try to gaslight us into thinking this is what every other black woman looks like. "this is what an average person looks like" average person here, no the frick its not!

like its just smth abt making the poc headcanons god awful ugly that doesnt sit well with me like lets think inwards on why yall wanna make the poc headcanons fat and ugly

the drawing is literally bordering on racist wojack and they're like "she's pretty!!!!"

imagine if the person who drew these was a very very VERY white person LOL

sources are saying theyre white

Why do they always make these exaggerated drawings ugly as sin. Black people are beautiful... this feels like racist insults every single time.🤦‍♂️

If I was told this was a right wing meme made specifically to make fun of s I would believe you

I've seen actual racist caricatures of black people that looked better than this.

"She's pretty wym"

my good friend spoke about this before

Hear me out...

I look like this

Bardfinn continues her culinary blogposting with this latest delicacy.

Turkey in Paprika Sauce with celery and steamed green beans.

Now I know you burgers have different words for things, but I can't find any turkey, celery or sauce on the above plate?

I can see some reconstituted meat cubes and some canned green beans on top of rice, but that's about it.

What even is that meat product? Let me know if you can identify it.

Edit: it is almost certainly the turkey variety of SPAM or something similar available in Burgerland:

Look at the texture of the reconstituted turkey spam. Look at the shape. This is disgusting.

!bardfinn

Absolutely sad. More videos of Lexi Bonner a 14y old attacking and nearly killing an 8yold boy who just wanted to be friends #lexibonner #fight #bully pic.twitter.com/0P4RHGqoMW

— breeckkie (@Brrxie2k24) April 15, 2024

I found a statement from the little boy's mom. He didn't almost die. He had some bruises and he was upset (and also a little bit of a kitty imo I guess there's a more video where she's pretty rough with him).

Somehow this story has morphed into multiple broken bones, a broken spine, and near death.

People are of course handling it well

Very normal behavior here

Okay that one's true

Not satisfied with prison for the girl and her mom, this morally righteous crusader wants her in jail and crippled. The girl is 14 btw

"People said"

People have been doxxing her and her family, of course

I've barely touched the surface of just how absolutely apeshit people are going over this

More threads I've tracked down

https://twitter.com/DylanS99/status/1779703686790344760

All the videos of the bullying:

https://twitter.com/MissRaasclarrtt/status/1779957130021265753

Did I mention this girl is 14? Grown dudes fantasizing about curb stomping little girls lmao wtf

That picture had her home address, family member's names, name of her school, and parents cars including license plate numbers