29, fat, ugly, unemployed, friendless, single, hopeless
I'm 29 and I've gained over 150 pounds in the last 2 years. I have stretch marks everywhere and yet I continue to eat. And I'm an alcoholic who drinks more than a 750mL bottle of hard liquor each day. I'm unemployed and lay in bed watching videos on my phone all day while Netflix plays in the background. I had an abortion in 2021 and I have mixed feelings about it. On one hand, maybe there would be someone to love me. On the other, I'm pathetic and would be a pathetic parent. When I'm not watching videos, I'm scrolling through social media and looking at everyone I know live their best life.
What's crazy is that I graduated high school early, went to a Big 10 university and graduated at the age of 20 with a biology degree. Started medical school at 22 and dropped out because I was on drugs and had a psychotic break. I ruined all of my friendships and relationships. I drink to forget about how I could have been a doctor but instead I'm a fat, ugly, worthless drunk.
I live with my parents and my grandmother. They're all good people but I spiraled into a crying fit today when my grandmother made a comment about my weight. I went downstairs to get food and my cousin said βhere's some goulash if you want itβ and my grandmother said βshe doesn't need it.β Then smiled and laughed about it. I know what I look like, I know how much weight I've gained. I didn't need that. What's more, she used to be enormously overweight until her husband died and she lost weight from depression. She should know how hurtful that was.
I've been suicidal for the last 5 years and everyday I inch closer to it. I have no one and nothing to live for. This has all just been a tearful rambleβ¦.
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How can a woman drink 750ml of liquor a day without dying? Holy shit.
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That's...
...half a handle right? I guess if she spaces it out over the day.
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Yes, that's still a lot even spaced out over the day.
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If it's some kitty 35% liquor
ain't it basically like a 6 pack of beer? By my alkie math it should 
be
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35% is normal grade, maybe a little low. Unless youre talking about 35 proof, a fifth is 12-16 drinks on alcohol content alone.
Not the craziest ive ever seen, but you are not having a good life keeping that daily habit up after a while.
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No, 35% is somewhat low I guess but enough to be considered hard liquor still. A shot is 44ml so that'd be 17 beers.
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You'd need to drink 14 330ml cans of 5% beer to get the same effect.
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Yeah that's definitely full blown alcoholism that will damage her body over the very long term, it's also expensive considering she sits in bed all days, but it's definitely doable. Once you build tolerance you can handle quite a bit if you pace it
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It could be like
10 dollars a day if she buys the crap alcohol. Probably one of the cheaper addictions.
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I forgot alcohol is cheaper in America than here
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Only if you aren't dealing with wine cartels
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Booze measurements in the USA are weird FWIW
half pint = 200mL
pint = 375mL
fifth = 750mL
handle / half gallon = 1.75L for liquor
Magnum = 1.5L for wine
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Wine is such a scam. You buy this big bottle but it only gets you like 2 glasses.
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fifth is 750 handle is 1750
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She's at least 300lbs. Hope that helps xx
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Does being fat help that much? She still has a small, weak, and pathetic woman's liver, no?
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When you have crippling alcoholism your tolerance gets pretty ridiculous.
a fifth is 3 quarters of a liter. that's completely in the wheelhouse of a fat alcoholic.
There are boozers out there drinking a handle a day, I'm sure, which is more than twice that.
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A fifth is a fifth of a gallon. Get out of here with that ATF gooblygobble.
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today in math with megaobese muttman
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i dont make the names, cute twink. that's what they call it.
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they also say latinx and swear allegiance to the pride flag. I thought burgers were supposed to love freedom?
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True, the ones I've seen are usually bigger men though. Guess it can happen to women too, still seems like a shit ton.
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Yeah it is, for sure.
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Eyyyyyyy
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