!metashit

My younger brother's(38M) personality for as long as I(41F)can remember has been Reddit. Personally I've been off and on it for about 10 years but usually only come back with a specific purpose and then get disillusioned with it very quickly and leave at the first sign it's more a negative experience than positive.

My understanding currently is that he is not a big redditor because he has moved on to some sort of mod position on the split off site rdrama which led him a position overseeing another site that I won't even name. We haven't spoken in months, which isn't unusual but usually it's because I shut him out, usually because of the kind of person he's become living in an online troll world. But this time it's because I, hypocritically was asking him for his advice on just the kind of Internet thing that I don't think he should really be doing and ended up emotionally insisting that he stop participating in all of this online stuff that he drop it because it's hurting him and damaging his life.

In asking for advice on how to troll a troll, I heard some things from him that made me really sad and also really aware of why he is the way he is, socially at least. I can't say that I haven't been sucked into situations where it was hard for me to turn my Internet off and look away from the screen, but listening to how good he is at what he does and imagining this is probably pretty normal, idk it's gross. I enjoy a light troll like anybody else but we're living in a world now where there are people, like my brother, where this is the real world and they can't put it down and if you troll somebody who is in that vulnerable position it can really be damaging, no wonder there's so many fricking people mentally fricked up from the Internet.

Anyways, I'm always the one that cuts him off but he responded so angrily to me suggesting that maybe he needs to leave this all behind that he hung up on me sent me some horrible texts bringing up some really hurtful things and then blocked me. I still really think his life would be better, so much better if he could do that and I would even do it with him if he wanted to try. I know it's hypocritical but am I the butthole?