The inspirational tale of Stella(the Goddess): how one woman discovered her identity as an alcoholic vegan transgender Satanist prostitute who does meth and pisses on people.

This is the story of Stella.

September, 2020. StellaIsAGoddess' first post is one of boundless optimism. A newly out and proud transgender woman, still in her 20s (for one more year, technically) and ready to embrace her new identity! 11 days sober! A supportive and caring mother! Hormone replacement therapy was to begin within the month! Things were looking up for Stella(previously Stevie) as she promised to quit smoking as well as get treatment for her hepatitis(see first post).

Less than four months later she made possibly one of the most depressing posts on r/cripplingalcoholism. She reveals that it was actually a fellow alcoholic who convinced helped her understand that she was transgender, and that every attempt to change her life had been met with miserable failure.

I thought that would make everything different now that I was on estrogen but it didn’t!

Unfortunately, estrogen wasn't enough to stop her from:

• losing her job
• getting evicted
• developing severe stomach ulcers
• being disowned by her father

All within the last month!!! At least her kind and loving mother, who Stella lied to in order to gain access to her home, would always be there for her.

The very next day... things are actually looking up! Stella, in her own words, "couldn't be happier" with her new job. She started smoking again, though.... The rest of the month would pass mostly without incident, although there may have been a one-off attempt at grooming venting with a suicidal teen(who, from what I can tell, may actually have killed themselves. Jesus Christ.)

February, 2021. Stella's loving mother has put her up in a hotel, where she sits and waits for her DoorDash money to arrive. There's really no summarizing this one in a way that makes it more palatable. Just know that her mother stopped paying for her hotel and has completely cut her off at this point. Probably due to the seizures and heart attacks and vomiting blood.

April. Stella now lives at home with her mother, who has supposedly began to constantly encourage Stella to commit suicide and steals her disability money(because of course she has disability money). She, by her own admittance, has no friends, being too degenerate for even her fellow trans people. How degenerate, you ask? Well, she wakes up so sick that she has to pour vodka up(or, well, down) her own butthole because she can't actually swallow it. Worst of all, her own mother attacks her with words like "slut" and "whore". But is there more to this story?

Yes. Of course there is. Stella is now responsible for two of the most depressing Reddit posts I have ever seen. There's some good backstory in there but the important stuff is this:

• Stella is a Satanist(they're apparently very accepting!)
• Stella is a camwhore(which is why her mother calls her mean, yet completely accurate names)
• Somehow, Stella still considers her to "accept her for being trans [which is] her only redeeming quality"
• Stella currently spends all her time calling other alcoholics on Groomercord
• Stella's teeth are ROTTING OUT OF HER SKULL

I think that most of the insanity can be summed up by one quote from her:

I know what I’m doing to myself is bad but it’s really out of dysphoria that all this comes.

One week later.

I'm in major euphoria right now!!

I can’t believe it some random stranger who I don’t even know thought I was pretty and actually came out and send it to my face! I’m so ecstatic right now I got to go find a way to celebrate. Presumably by "celebrate" she means "drinking excessively". Still, it's somehow a positive uptick and further proof that Stella's entire identity, outlook, and wellbeing depends on how others perceive her and how well she "passes". She still hasn't quit smoking :(

"This morning my mom told me that I was a mistake and she wishes that I was never born." By June, Stella again has no money and no job. Fully prepared to die, she turns to r/randomactsofCA, which apparently will toss money to any butthole who posts their sob story. But even the charity of strangers isn't enough...

Well it’s happened y’all. I’ve officially lost it all. My job, family, friends, car and now my home.

The title really says it all. Several months pass by with little-to-no updates. She mentions wanting to post a picture of herself which I support because it would be extremely hilarious empowering

October 22 2021: The Bombshell drops, or: Shit Gets Kinda Sad. Dr. Drunklove or how I learned to stop worrying and embrace all my faults, insecurities and love my body. This pretty much explains everything in the saddest way possible. The long and short of it is: "Stella", as Stevie, was r*ped by a male babysitter at the age of 7. This turned him transgender, and then gay, and then transgender again. Or something. Stevie gets into various hijinx across the country that involve fricking various men for money, sometimes on camera, sometimes on camera in s*x dungeons. Honestly, there's shit in here that's probably reportable to the FBI-not exactly what I had in mind when I started looking into this fellow. I mean, brave women. At this point it's obvious my commitment to pronouns is farcical. Did I mention she's had over 60 seizures, all from alcohol withdrawals?

One week later, Stella has a pretty good day, in her own words. Go Stella!

One month later, Stella gets r*ped at gunpoint. Jesus fricking Christ. I would like to say I briefly scrolled through this person's Reddit and saw the markings of a typical pathetic CA poster when I decided to write up a post about them. But this is just insane.

One day later..... Stella is doing better? She's eating a sandwich? What the frick is happening?

In what can only be described as a karmic act, the pisser becomes the pissee.

The next several posts were mostly removed automatically, so there's no way to recover them as far as I can tell. She does have a post entitled "I think I wanna quit drinking..." which makes sense.

Her next unremoved post is about how she uses meth to get through the Suboxone withdrawals and she uses the Suboxone to get through the heroin withdrawals but she can't get the Suboxone because she's too darn drunk all the time. It's like an infinite recursion of terrible life decisions. After several posts about begging, Satan, and serial killers, we finally get to a major turning point.

You see, as of a month ago, Stella has embraced a new life as a "FSWW" or "full-service s*x worker", which is a nice way of saying she gets assfricked regularly for cash. Of course, her local haunts just weren't happenin' as much as she would have liked, so it's OFF TO VEGAS, BABY!!! :#marseygambling: <----her average clientele.

Before she hits the road, she makes the move on her "dream girl" and all is going well- until she passes out(because of the alcoholism), pisses not only herself (because of the alcoholism) but also all over the "dream" "girl", scaring her off. Oh, and now she's vegan. Not that that's especially relevant, but it's another identity to add to the list.

Fast-forward to only 16 days ago. Stella is breaking into the scene, baby! Not content to piss all over just one girl, she's ready to find a like-minded to cuddle with. Don't worry, it can be a cis girl too. How gracious of her.

What exciting adventures awaited Stella in Vegas? How much money was she making every day as the hundreds-nay, thousands of clients were lining up? Did she ever start a new life and "leave all the past trauma, pain, and hurt behind"?

Of course not. Less than 10 days after moving to Vegas, Stella has given up hope Begging for only "a few bucks, maybe around 30", this is the last we've seen of Stella(whoIsAGoddess) for about a week. This isn't really drama, I guess, but it's a bizarre look at the complete destruction of a person's life as they grow obsessed with their own self-image. Also, I really did miss most of that shit in the middle on my first glance through her profile, so I ended up writing that last-that's why there's such a weird tonal shift.