this is cirno

You will never be a real Westerner. You have no diversified economy, you have no genteel liberalism, you have no boring centrist democracy. You are just a slav (or Slav-adjacent) twisted by ethnonationalism and cope into a crude mockery of nature's perfection.

All the "validation" you get is two-faced and half-hearted. Behind your back civilised countries mock you. The EU is disgusted and ashamed of you, your "allies" laugh about your cartoonish politics behind closed doors.

Westerners are utterly repulsed by you. Thousands of years of evolution have allowed westerners to sniff out Slavs with incredible efficiency. Even Slavs who “develop” look uncanny and depressing to a westerner. Your commieblocks are a dead giveaway. And even if you manage to get an investor home with you, he'll turn tail and bolt the second he gets a whiff of your ancient decaying infrastructure.

You will never be happy. You wrench out a fake smile every single morning and tell yourself it's going to be ok, but deep inside you feel the depression creeping up like a weed, ready to crush you under the unbearable weight.

Eventually it'll be too much to bear - you'll buy some guns, arm a militia, and start another internecine ethnic conflict. The EU will find you, heartbroken but relieved that they no longer have to live with the debt burden.

This is your fate. This is what you chose. There is no turning back.