hi. posting this because a lot of people are questioning me for posting the loli god requiem video after i, admittedly, did attack a creator for liking that kind of stuff 2 years ago.
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hi. posting this because a lot of people are questioning me for posting the loli god requiem video after i, admittedly, did attack a creator for liking that kind of stuff 2 years ago.
when i first started vtubing, i did not understand the culture in the slightest. i was mostly a cringe stan twitter user. so, coming into vtubing and anime culture, someone who had zero clue as to what anything was, i didn't understand anything and when i saw loli stuff i immediately assumed it was libertarian shit.
(keep this part in mind as you're reading the rest. when i first started streaming, i had a bigger content creator convince me that drama = content so i should “farm that shit”)
so, me, still slowly coming out my woke stan twitter phase and entering the vtubing phase, i saw what a bunch of people were posting about a streamer on twitter and i immediately jumped the hate bandwagon because i wanted to take my friend's advice .. which lead me to call out the girl LIVE on MY stream where her name had NO business being there.
looking back at it, i wasn't even trying to criticize. i was just straight up bullying her and trying to de-platform her when i didn't even know who she truly is as a person. we have so many mutual friends in common and any time her name was brought up in idle chit chat, i started feeling really bad. because everyone had said nothing but nice things about her. and it became more clear and clear to me that she didn't deserve that.
as for apologizing to her, ive reached to a mutual friend of ours back in february (because her dms are closed) in attempt to send my apology to her. said friend told me that she wasn't answering dms because it was clear she was going through something at the time.
after i started gaining experience in streaming over the year, ive learned so many things. you'd actually have to be mentally inept to do what i did over a year ago. it's just rude, unnecessary, and disrespectful. i know that now.
and if somehow this message gets to you, i am very sorry for what i did. i didn't know you and yet i attacked you without even educating myself with who you truly are. my behavior was unacceptable. i will continue to learn how to be a better person. side note, i hope u feel better with what ur dealing with atm. it sounds rough, so pls take all the time u need to heal. u have so many people who love and appreciate u that will be waiting for u with open arms.
and sorry to those who i upset with my previous post. as i've delved deeper into the world of vtubing, i've gained a better understanding of anime culture. i've come to understand that characters with youthful appearances are common across media forms. i've come to appreciate their innocence without any negative implications. ive pretty much adopted an entirely new outlook on this subject.
in conclusion, not the same person who i was two years ago. i hate her too. i hope u can give present me a chance. if not, that's okay too. have nice day.
IDK who this person is, I just know now that the V tuber community strongly stands with Drake!
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hi. twerks posting this because a wot of peopwe awe questioning me ^^ fow posting the wowi god wequiem video uwu aftew cx i, licks lips admittedwy, did attack a cweatow fow uwu wiking that kind of stuff 2 yeaws ago. twerks when i fiwst stawted OwO vtubing, runs away i ( U ω U ) did not undewstand xD the cuwtuwe in the swightest. i hehe was mostwy a cwinge stan twittew usew. so, cries coming into vtubing and anime cuwtuwe, sweats someone x3 who had >w< zewo cwue as to what anything was, nuzzles you i didn't undewstand anything and when i saw wowi stuff i immediatewy assumed it was p-do shit. hugs you (keep this pawt in mind as you'we weading blehmya the west. nuzzles you when ^^; i fiwst (ㅅꈍ ˘ ꈍ) stawted stweaming, runs away i had a biggew content cweatow convince me (˘ε˘) that dwama = walks away content ^w^ so i shouwd “fawm that shit”)
so, hugs you me, nuzzles you stiww ;_; swowwy coming òωó out my woke stan twittew phase and entewing the vtubing phase, i saw what a bunch of peopwe wewe posting about a hehe stweamew -.- on twittew OwO and i immediatewy jumped the hate nyah bandwagon (ㅅꈍ ˘ ꈍ) because >w< i wanted to take my fwiend's advice .. pounces on you which ^•ω•^ wead me to caww ^w^ out the giww WIVE OwO on MY stweam whewe hew name had NO business being thewe. twerks wooking back at it, sweats i wasn't even twying to cwiticize. notices bulge i was just blehmya stwaight up buwwying hew and twying to de-pwatfowm hew when i didn't qwq even know who ꈍᴗꈍ she (˘ε˘) twuwy is as a pewson. pounces on you we have so (ㅅꈍ ˘ ꈍ) many (ᵕᴗ ᵕ⁎) mutuaw fwiends in common and any time hew name was bwought up in idwe chit chat, glomp i stawted feewing weawwy bad. glomp because evewyone had said nothing but nice things about hew. twerks and it uwu became mowe cweaw and cweaw to („ᵕᴗᵕ„) me that ;_; she didn't desewve owo that. glomps you
as fow (˘ε˘) apowogizing to hew, ive weached to a mutuaw -.- fwiend x3 of ღ(U꒳Uღ) ouws back in febwuawy (because hew dms awe cwosed) snuggles in attempt ( U ω U ) to send my OwO apowogy to hew. pounces on you said ꈍᴗꈍ fwiend towd me blehmya that she wasn't answewing dms because it >w< was cweaw òωó she was going thwough something at the time. glomps you aftew i stawted gaining expewience in stweaming ovew the yeaw, glomp ive weawned so many things. you'd actuawwy have blehmya to be mentawwy inept to do what i did ovew OwO a yeaw ago. screams it's just wude, unnecessawy, runs away and diswespectfuw. bites you i know owo that now.
and if somehow this message gets to c: you, i am vewy sowwy fow what i blehmya did. screams i didn't know you ( U ω U ) and yet i attacked you without even educating mysewf ꈍᴗꈍ with who you twuwy awe. bites you my behaviow was unacceptabwe. screams i wiww continue to weawn how to be a bettew pewson. side note, i hope u feew bettew with what uw deawing with atm. sweats it sounds wough, nuzzles you so pws take aww the time u need to heaw. EEEEEK u (◡ ω ◡) have so many peopwe who wove and appweciate u that wiww be waiting fow u with open awms. hugs you
and sowwy to those who i upset with my pwevious post. EEEEEK as i've dewved deepew into the wowwd rawr of vtubing, cries i've gained a bettew undewstanding of anime cuwtuwe. screams i've come to undewstand that chawactews òωó with youthfuw appeawances awe common acwoss media fowms. snuggles i've come to appweciate theiw ^^; innocence without any negative impwications. nuzzles you ive pwetty much xD adopted an entiwewy new outwook on this (˘ε˘) subject. cries in concwusion, runs away not the same xD pewson who i was -.- two yeaws ago. screams i hate hew too. snuggles i hope u can give pwesent me a ^•ω•^ chance. walks away if not, that's okay too. screams have nice day. sees bulge
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Darn, you're really mad over this, but thanks for the effort you put into typing that all out! Sadly I won't read it all.
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