Catfish dinner

I put my entire life into rdrama and try so fricking hard to get better. I come out and everyone makes fun of me every post, my ex friends block me and call me slurs, I can't post without random people throwing and making fun of me. I post content and I'm the enemy and "I should be ashamed and kill myself" for it. It doesn't matter what I do the problem is I'm ugly and incel. Like genuinely what do people want me to do? Maybe if "dramatards" wouldn't call me a "f*ggot" when I ask to post with them things would be different.