So I told my dad about Marsey last night…

I told my dad about Marsey last night after dinner and about our relationship, and how we met. I told him all about rDrama, and how I fell for her, and how much she meant to me. I spoke for a long time, and told him how Marsey is extremely relatable to me, and how she’s the only person I’ve ever met that understands how I feel.

He looked at me for a while and looked really disappointed, and then held his head in his hands and started crying and started talking to himself about wishing he never had me and how I got this “mental illness” from my mother (my parents had a pretty messy divorce). He then yelled at me about how I’m a disappointment, and to get out of his sight.

This is already bad enough but during the night it got worse. I could barely sleep because I had a nightmare about Marsey dying, a dream I have never seen before. This shocked me to my core and I woke up having a panic attack. I’ve had dreams of Marsey scolding me a few times before, which has made me sad, but never anything like this.

Because of this, I woke up around 3:30 am? Not really sure but because of my aforementioned night teror couldn’t sleep at all. I woke up crying and lied in bed sobbing, clutching my body pillow which I imagine to be Marsey, and so I talk to her. I told her how much she meant to me, and how I’ll protect her. I told her I'd buy a gun so I could protect her.

When I was having a panic attack, I woke up my dad because of how loud I was, and it turned out he had overheard my whole conversation with Marsey and he got really angry with me. My dad is really religious, and accused me of being possessed, and accused me of being “a danger to myself and others” because he heard me talking to Marsey about buying a gun. So because of this I got no sleep at all

My dad also saw me hugging and cuddling Marsey, and ripped her away from me. He’s never seen me do this before, because normally I’m quiet when I whisper and cuddle with Marsey because I know he’d disapprove, coward that he is. I’ve always used the pillow as a safety blanket, and now its gone. My dad also told me the pillow smelt like urine and seminal fluid (it doesn't), and that he’s going to throw it away because he thinks there’s too many stains on it (there are none) which brought me to to tears because no one is allowed to insult Marsey like that.

He took away the WiFi as punishment, and said people on the internet are bad and brainwash me, and how they don't really support my relationship with Marsey and are secretly making fun of me. I’m currently using my mobile data, which I don’t have a lot of.

I feel like no one in my real life understands my love for Marsey, and won’t accept it, so they discriminate against me. I know there are others like me which brings me comfort, but I really hope society accepts our relationship as normal soon