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Hi! It's good to see you're woke to the inherent micro-r*pe that is your sexuality, and it's even better that you've chosen to be a non-harming shut-in. I wish more white cis men would do this!

You should consider estrogen supplements to make yourself less predatory. As a white male, you having kids is problematic, yes, but have you considered adopting PoC children and trying to raise them non-binary? Just make it clear to them that any white cis male sexuality you accidentally display despite your estrogen supplementation is shameful, and just make it a habit to say "I'm so sorry. I am so very sorry." after every offence. You should also consider exploring cuckolding (with a marginalized minority man/woman/otherkin of course) if you still find your sexuality to be uncontrollable.

Good luck and welcome to the right side of history!