I want two wwap my littwal bwother's car awound a lamp pwost

My brother is a year younger than I and two academic years behind me. He has no idea what he wants to do in life, has no appreciable talents or skills, and has likely not read a book he wasn't forced to read since he was 12. He likes Seinfeld, the Office, and pop music. He literally cannot carry a meaningful conversation for more than 10 minutes, because he has no real interests.

That said, my brother has a car, a girlfriend, a large group of friends and an active social life. He talks (never to me, only to our parents, who tell it to me) about all the times he's gone on a luxury vacation with his friends and some girl basically threw herself at him (but he definitely didn't cheat on his girlfriend ), or how he had such a great time at a concert in this cool nightclub. He has a management job opportunity at a large corporate gig that lets him basically work 6 hour days where he makes more than I do.

I just got back from having to pick up his car for him after he got too dunk to drive it. When I was driving it home, looking at all the people coming in and out of nightclubs, I had some really bad thoughts. I'm on medication that normally keeps me from having them, and I have to talk to someone regularly who makes sure I don't have them, but I had them on that ride home.

!incels

Edit: this post was incredibly cringe. I was being a whiney cute twink who just wanted attention. I'm actually in a pretty good place in life all things considered.