During a 2004 baseline qualitative interview in Kentucky, “Cletus,” (25-year old, white male) volunteered the information that there were MA-themed poems circulating among active MA users. He said, “I don't know if a whole lotta people know, but they've [some MA users] even gone so far as making a rhyme[s], you know. If you've ever heard that, you know, kind of a storyline behind doing the meth.”
https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC3713610
Poem One: The End of the Road
1. The end of the road is finally near.
2. How did it all start? I'm not quite clear.
3. Did I call my friends or did they call me?
4. Did I have to pay money or did I get it for free?
5. I think it was Sunday we started our buzz.
6. A big fat fifty for me and my Cuz.
7. He [cook/dealer] said it was awesome, he called it “the fire.”
8. I know this guy well and he is no liar.
9. A brand new Bic lighter is a useful tool.
10. A straw or a pen and, of course, aluminum foil.
11. I mold my foil, it's now called a boat.
12. I hold it real steady as I pour on the dope.
13. The foil now heated from my brand new Bic.
14. I heat it real slow, not to burn it too quick.
15. The dope is now melting, it's a beautiful sight.
16. With the straw in my mouth to catch the smoke just right.
17. Holding the boat steady at just the right slant.
18. I hit it real hard, now hear comes the pant.
19. Now exhaling the smoke, I can't help but smile.
20. I haven't seen dope this good in a really long while.
21. My Cuz is now ready for it is her turn.
22. She's impressed by the taste and the way that it burns.
23. The dope is awesome, we like it that way.
24. That's how we started on our endless day.
25. Wound for sound and spun to the gun.
26. We're tweaking and geeking, just having some fun.
27. Before we know it five days have gone by.
28. We're both still awake, but we have bugged out eyes.
29. Our bodies need rest, now we're moving real slow.
30. I'm seeing weird shit as my mind starts to go.
31. A rational thought, I haven't had in a while.
32. My jaws are locked and I can't even smile.
33. We do more and more as we try to maintain.
34. We think we're okay, but we're acting insane.
35. We're both spaced out in our own little world.
36. Until we hear talking, it's the voice of a girl.
37. Both of us freeze, careful not to make a sound.
38. Now I hear footsteps and the loading of rounds.
39. I know it's the law, so why even look.
40. They think we're dealers or maybe the cook.
41. Now we're low crawling ‘cross the living room floor.
42. Just past the couch and then out the back door.
43. We sling open the door and we make our move.
44. We can't look back, we got too much to lose.
45. Straight to the bushes as fast as we can.
46. We lie there and hide and think of a plan.
47. We're safe at the bushes, but we cannot speak.
48. 'Cause we're both out of breath and our knees are all weak.
49. We know not to move, not even a muscle.
50. 'Cause the grass and the twigs make a distinctive rustle.
51. The morning sun now pierces our eyes.
52. The Feds didn't find us, I was surprised.
53. How did we do it? Surely they had to see.
54. Right by the bushes was my cousin and me.
55. We can't see a cop, not a single blue light.
56. That doesn't make sense, ‘cause we both heard them last night.
57. The cops didn't see us, now that doesn't add up.
58. Then I remembered I never looked up.
59. We never took time to check out that sound.
60. We each flipped out and just hit the ground.
61. We spent too many days without any sleep.
62. Doing too much dope and we needed to eat.
63. The two of us then had to call it quits [from that particular binge].
64. For another true story of smoking the shit.
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I have done a bunch of meth (I experimented a bit, then I got into it and was tweaking pretty much 24/7 for more than a year)
AMA (ask me anything), I'm about to go to sleep but I'll respond when I wake up (Please ask me something, if I don't get any responses then I'll be sad)
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does the following ring true for you?
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Hmmmmm
I don't think think that's true for most users. Especially because meth has such a strong stigma and a bad reputation, most people who are using it know that it's bad. People have a complicated relationship with it, they probably find some positive aspects and use them as a defense mechanism of sorts, like "oh when I'm on meth at least it helps me be more productive and I clean my house" or "it makes me more creative and helps me do my art projects"
So I think a lot of people focus on beneficial aspects and downplay negative ones so they can feel better about their usage, but at the end of the day they still know it's not good and they probably talk about how they're going to quit soon.
Then there's another category of people who are more straightforward, they know meth is bad but they're a lot more shameless and honest about their usage, they're like "yeah it's not good for me but it is what it is, I love meth and I'm gonna keep smoking, frick it"
I think it's only a slim minority of people who "may go long periods before recognizing the problematic nature of using the drug". I think that it's foolhardy to use rehab as the metric for a user realizing the problematicness of a drug. It's not as if people use meth for 10 years and then they're suddenly like "hey maybe this isn't good for me" and then they go to rehab the next day. How it really works is that they're aware they have a problem the whole time they're using, but they don't go to rehab until things start getting bad for them. For example, I think most alcoholics know they have a problem for years before they end up going to AA.
Hopefully that all makes sense, if any of it's unclear then feel free to ask for clarification (or ask some follow-up questions)
Cheers :)
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Are you feeling okay bud?
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How many hours per week did you sleep during that year?
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There were at least a few times where I stayed awake for a week, maybe even longer (I wasn't counting the days but I'm sure I got to 7 a few times)
And when I did finally sleep after being awake for a week, I don't think I slept much longer than usual, probably about 8 to 12 hours I'd say.
On average I think I probably slept twice a week but I'm not sure, it was all a blur at the time and now it's almost ten years in the past so it's even blurrier
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