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Ketamine trip report

First off, thank you to my insurance risk pool for paying for me to get high 2x a week 🤗

I am on Spravato 84mg twice a week for treatment resistant depression having failed 8 or 9 SSRIs/SNRIs, hospitalized 4x, attempted twice (once which was almost fatal…in the ICU for awhile). People throw around the terms “abuse” and “trauma” an awful lot but some things I have experienced I've never even told another soul (even my sister). Really glad my psychiatrist is gay bc I feel safe talking about some of the CSA with him. I had a therapist before who I swear got “excited” talking about it.

I had been relatively stable for around 5 years until I faced some work stress in the last 12 months. I guess a lot of my problems came roaring back and I fell into a deep depression. I did inpatient, partial hospitalization and intensive outpatient and it didn't really help that much tbh. I am currently on 2X the max dose of Prozac and it just makes me unable to c*m or cry. It wasn't helping with the anhedonia and my panic attacks were still happening around 1x a week. I was running out of options (hence the $10k service dog….)

Enter ketamine 😍

Spravato is the FDA approved version for depression. You sniff it 3x 5 minutes apart and then they leave u in a room to go on a psychedelic trip.

WELL

This shit is working. I have my fourth session today.

The first two times I k-holed and had out of body experiences (seeing myself from above) and saw life was beautiful again….theres so much life to live. It was a lot like doing shrooms. The effects wore off pretty quickly but I was grateful for any respite from the despair. The third time I didn't have a full trip or anything (was more like being pleasantly drunk) but the effects have stuck around. As I wrote on another post, I am reading for pleasure, I have hopes and plans for the future and I believe all my problems have solutions.

My hot psychiatrist said they don't do it much at Northwestern bc of the tolerance you can develop. That part kind of scares me but hopefully I'll be able to crawl out of this abyss first.

If you have treatment resistant depression, it's worth looking into. I know for the Blues it just required failing one SSRI. There is a copay assistance program so you shouldn't have to pay much if anything to get it as long as you have private commercial insurance.

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Bookers tip/top 7mo ago #6298067

That's good.

I've read a little about psychadelics in treatment of depression and there's definitely merit there.

Only familiar with mushroom research, but I imagine it's the same concept for K, and probably Ayahuasca also, which has become popular in recent years.

I'm glad it's working for you.

I think that one of the things it does is increase neuroplasticity and help your brain form new connections

So probably something good to do is couple this treatment with something like CBT to change your thinking patterns and neural pathways and also you should be creating new habits, new routines.

You're doing outpatient and that's good, but look into a support group or ...anything sort of like that where you can have a space where you're able to talk to people who aren't your therapist.

You'll need something like that going forward after outpatient ends. Somewhere you can talk and socialize with people that aren't your therapist.

Support groups similar to your outpatient therapy are probably best, but literally anything is better than nothing, so like a book club or w/e idk.

Basically .. change your shit now while you're in a state that is receptive to change.

This will help you from falling back into the old patterns that lead you to this point.