I 30f am thinking about putting up my 3f neurodivergent child up for adoption : Parenting

English is my primary language and the primary language we use for her she does as well speak Spanish I also want to make it clear I will not just give her away because I'm overwhelmed I will only do it if I have exhausted every single option and fail I signed all the documentation with the school district about 30 days ago but haven't heard anything outside of her stating in September I gave gone to my local services and been rejected saying they do not offer those kinds of services and have been in contact with my insurance my child's pediatrician who we see about once a month just to keep follow ups of her behavior and other things like her learning improvement I do take her to a speech therapist twice a week and watch and read as much as I can to be able to teach her I set up a school inside you home where she has learned to count to 10 abc colors currently working on shapes and writing skills we do sensory play I take her out to the park if it's warm enough if not we purchased an indoor jungle gym for her to play we also dedicate individual time for each of the kids as well as family day we do self care days to try and teach her hygiene as well as try to keep her on the same daily routine I am doing everything that I can do currently and am still lost

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EDIT: or this one... OP is dumbbbb

I begged my daughters pediatrician for two years to test her for autism and they refused because she is bilingual and if she speaks two languages she can't be neurodivergent she was finally diagnosed after her third birthday and now doesn't qualify for any program until she is school aged 5yo she is very intense and will slam her head on the floor throw tantrums to the point that I had to stay home with her and leave my job she is now more aggressive hitting her siblings bitting kicking scratching gauging at eyes slamming her head against walls concrete floors and I don't know what to do I have been begging for help and I'm to the point that I'm completely overwhelmed I have no friends or family that can help and I just don't feel like I can provide her with the help she needs and feel like I am such a horrible and failure of a mom it's causing me to have depression I don't sleep because she is a danger to herself and others so she has to be next to me at all times she'll do things like eat paint crayons anything left out she climbs onto the counters to reach upper cabinets I'm just so at a loss with no help and I'm just a failure of a parent