At first I thought it was utterly disgusting since I'm usually very vanilla. We talked about it and I thought, maybe I'll get used to it or change my mind, and I really tried to make it work. But lately I just can't get it off my mind to the point I get so uncomfortable I can't bear it.

This is why you at least talk about it with your partner as soon as you can without being creepy.

Sometimes I lol about religious types who wait years to marry so they can frick and only then realise all the guy's fricked up stuff