I texted my male best friend im in love with him and then told him to kill himself because he thought i wasnt being srs

Exhibit A

i think a lot about this american girl from Georgia i used to know online called Katie. we met thru our shared love of poetry and classic literature when we were like 12 on instagram. she was so intelligent and sweet and kind and i fricked it all up by confessing my crush on her when I was like 14. At the time I was being severely abused and didn't know who I was. We were very close friends and I remember her telling me she needed time to think but still loved me... as a friend of course. But then I became a degenerate and was absolutely horrible to her. I called her and her friend c*nts because she'd made friends with this girl called Kendall and started msging her all the time instead and I knew Kendall didn't like me... I mean looking back we were like 14-15 and I got so worked up over useless drama. She sent me this long list of reasons why i'm a bad person. I accused her of fetishising Jewish men. God she was just a teenage girl... She stayed lovely and was always learning more and doing things with her life , I turned lazy ... We reconnected a year after but she was uncomfortable around me and deleted pictures of herself after sending them. After my old account got banned i didn't add her and her account is still active with kendall's @ in her bio. It's been years now. Every day i want to message her but my heart tells me not to. She's doing so well academically while i'm now jobless on benefits in homeless accomodation . I'm proud of her . I still love her . i'm straight now though . rip

She's taking HPV medication, so definitely a foid

https://old.reddit.com/r/redscarepod/comments/1f423gv/my_hpv_medication_in_the_rs_pill_case/

Never mind, it turns out I was stalking the wrong redditor , it's a guy