Me on the left (nonbinary, they/them) and my beautiful trans girlfriend, who has recently gotten her legal name change. She's the one. /r/transpositive

!transphobes the fricking admits to having been r*ped and being a fricking p-dophile

https://old.reddit.com/r/pornfreewomen/comments/usjax9/i_use_porn_to_hurt_myself_and_now_i_took_it_too/?sort=controversial

>Im 25 now but my addiction started a fricking long time ago when I was fricking just a fricking young teen. It was fricking pretty normal stuff for a fricking while but my interests kept developing into more dark and some taboo areas because of something that happened to me. I used them to fuel self destructive fantasies. Iv tried to quit a fricking bunch of times but I always come back and just do it over again.

>A while ago when I was a fricking teen I was fricking sexually assaulted, by someone I thought was fricking my friend, during a fricking party. It's effected me a fricking lot and after a fricking while I turned toward r*pe porn. More specifically hentai. I loved the fricking cute girls but I also seem to love putting myself in the fricking position of the fricking girls getting abused. Even when not looking at porn I construct fantasies of being kidnapped and r*ped and beaten and made to do awful things because the fricking feeling of shame and despair and fear made me feel validated in my depression. "Look here's a fricking REAL reason to be sad" Im deeply ashamed of the fricking things I played out But it made me feel good in an awful way. I LIKED the fricking awful feelings I felt. And I enjoy the fricking pain this gives me and it's all done with porn. All of it.

>So now iv crossed a fricking line. I took it too far. On an alternate reddit account I went to roleplay subs and I ACTUALLY cheated by playing out this fantasies of abuse and pain with strangers who enjoy it. I played out a fricking bunch of different awful scenarios with different people over reddit chat. Several of these involved playing a fricking 15yo as that was fricking my age when I was fricking assaulted. And then my partner found out. I'm not super clear on how but he unlocked my phone while I was fricking in the fricking shower. He confessed to taking the fricking chance to open various apps and look around but mine is fricking definitely the fricking bigger offense. He found out what I'd done and stormed into he bathroom to demand an explanation immediately.