I've just realized
@SalahShill aka Pessishill2, had been using a bot
to downvote. All this time, I"d thought
there was finally a person
who hated the world, hate me, as much as I did
.
I'll still never forget the euphoria when I first nooticed his downvotes . I thought I had found a kindred soul
, someone who tired of the positivity forced upon us
and the manipulation of the dramaconomy by Big Upvote
. Someone who was like me
. What he did was simultaneously so meaningless and futile
, but also such a powerful expression of his dissatisfaction, frustration, and humanity
.
So I started sending thirsty messages to Pessishill2, saying how much love I had , how I wanted them to be mine. I thought they felt the same. I was extremely horny, extremely down bad, but it was all because of my genuine feelings. I started longing for the day we could reach consummate love.
Now it has all been revealed to be a lie. https://rdrama.net/h/countryclub/post/202044/-. I realize now how obvious it was. The bot responses by Pessishill2, their lack of interest. I've never felt like this in my life, and I'm in despair .
I used to always check my votes. It used to please me greatly to be upvoted or downvoted by someone with almost no comments, a lurker account. It's like an interaction with a ghost, like a silent handshake in the dark . But now, I've woken from this dream and it isn't the warm touch of a human, but cold metal I am holding in my hand.
!lurkers I'll miss you guys while the delusion lasted.
@AverageTotally thanks for all the love.
@omertosa i'll miss you too lapp. Thanks to everyone who upvoted me. Thanks to everyone else too for this whole experience.
This bot controlled world has left me in despair. I will never find love in such a world, so I'm leaving for good, and this is my fond, but bitter, farewell.
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