I'm in despair. Pessishill has left me in despair.

I've just realized @SalahShill aka Pessishill2, had been using a bot to downmarsey. All this time, I"d thought there was finally a person who hated the world, hate me, as much as I did .

I'll still never forget the euphoria when I first nooticed his downmarseys . I thought I had found a kindred soul , someone who tired of the positivity forced upon us and the manipulation of the dramaconomy by Big Upmarsey . Someone who was like me . What he did was simultaneously so meaningless and futile , but also such a powerful expression of his dissatisfaction, frustration, and humanity .

So I started sending thirsty messages to Pessishill2, saying how much love I had , how I wanted them to be mine. I thought they felt the same. I was extremely horny, extremely down bad, but it was all because of my genuine feelings. I started longing for the day we could reach consummate love.

Now it has all been revealed to be a lie. https://rdrama.net/h/countryclub/post/202044/-. I realize now how obvious it was. The bot responses by Pessishill2, their lack of interest. I've never felt like this in my life, and I'm in despair .

I used to always check my votes. It used to please me greatly to be upmarseyd or downmarseyd by someone with almost no comments, a lurker account. It's like an interaction with a ghost, like a silent handshake in the dark . But now, I've woken from this dream and it isn't the warm touch of a human, but cold metal I am holding in my hand. !lurkers I'll miss you guys while the delusion lasted. @AverageTotally thanks for all the love. @omertosa i'll miss you too lapp. Thanks to everyone who upmarseyd me. Thanks to everyone else too for this whole experience.

This bot controlled world has left me in despair. I will never find love in such a world, so I'm leaving for good, and this is my fond, but bitter, farewell.