I woke up on time and am now thinking positively ( Even on my waste day I did a bunch of things )

I have collected enough positive networks in my brain to balance out all the bad crumbs that were left over. I feel a little alive again as my baseline.

Even slept for 5-6 hours but slept like a baby and managed to get up easily. The power of love truly does perform miracles on the human psyche.

I also ended up being honest with myself and managed to determine exactly what I want out of life ( not what society wants me to want out of life, what I actually definitely always like getting out of life ) and now my life has a purpose of chasing those things that I like.

Yesterday for fun I did a tarot reading, then followed it up with 3,300 ( or was it 200 or 400 at the end? ) ( Edit: I checked again - it was 3,600+ words total ) words of free word vomit posting on chudrama across three consecutive posts. That also helped me lighten up and relax. First draft posting so the quality is obviously not that great.

Today I followed that up by giving advice to my friends who now appear to come to me for suggestions even though their lives are going far better than mine in terms of life success, so I am the wise one in my friend circle.

Things are going good for me. I now intend to follow the priority based to do list today and see if I make any further gains. The power of love hopefully will be enough to overcome the places where I was still getting anxious about getting the task done to a far greater extreme than the actual difficulty of the task necessitated.

Final thoughts:

I did keep improving. I hope I will keep improving. I have things to look forward to in life now. I still don't know how much further the exit is from the hole that was my life but I will probably only know when I am long out of the hole.

Good luck to me and good luck to you.

P.S. When it comes to food go for quality over quantity once you can afford all your basic nutrition. This is to help you not get fat while still enjoying eating food. Also remember your fiber and to eat fruits and veggies as they are more filling.