My sober heck

Had some crosseyed muslim b-word show me pics of her abused grandbaby while crying while I was trying to eat breakfast.

The psychotic roomate I had finally left after getting caught nodding out too many times but she started shit with everyone. Had her baby daddy message me on facebook spreading lies I was talking shit about him. Had to hear her crying and begging on the phone constantly for him to love her.

Can't be cool with literally fricking anyone cuz they start asking me for shit (hey can I borrow your shirt?? Can u help me out with this??)

Contemptuous people mad that I avoid them and think I'm better than them (I am. )

I have no upcoming court cases. Not on probation or parole or have active CPS cases against me.

Can't relate cuz I don't have rotting flesh scars from shooting up fent or having multiple kids (most got taken away from their parents thank god) I'm an alcoholic and people that whore themselves out are disgusting.

FUNNY but these two b-words were screaming at each other for hours about how THEY ARE SATAN AND THEY ARE THE EVIL SERPENT!!

My other r-slur roomate is still here and all she fricking does is complain about EVERYTHING and snores like a truck all night. Wont shut the frick up about her dead boyfriend, sorry, "husband" when she let it slip she had a protection order when he died of a heart attack.

Gotta do tons of bullshit like chores 3x a day and daily meetings and mandatory groups that are getting in the way of me finding a job but saying frick it and not letting this place cripple and stifle me.

STICKING WITH THE PLAN. CURRENTLY ON #212 and #246 on the section 8 housing list. Have a job training orientation this thursday. Have a car but have a DUI so driving jobs are out.

Oh yeah btw once I hit zero on the housing list they may deny me. I've been homeless here since like august with sober house addresses so idk.

The homeless shelter is CLOSED cuz it's nice out so this is my only option unless I want to live out of my car or in a tent.

Should have a job in a month. No buddhist temples around here in bumfrick nowhere. There's one 45 minutes away with viatnamese speaking services only.

The YMCA is $40 a month. Too poor rn but maybe later..

Spent my crazy check on food and making sure my car is up to date and shit like hangers and nicer clothes than leggings or sweatpants or 5 year old shirts with holes in them.

Can't leave without ""permission" like go to walmart or just outside which is why I wanted to just go to a shelter but nah...

Have a car, working on job and if the housing list doesnt work out there are horrible shitholes I can afford I GUESS.

Eventually when I'm stable and can't get kicked out immediately for any reason (employment, housing) they have lots of resources for certifications but yeah life sucks mad peepee rn.

Can't even drink or go hang out with a friend (I move fricking everywhere constantly and they're like 2-3 hours away rn)

LIFE IS GREAT. JUST REMEMBERING THIS IS TEMPORARY. NO PAIN NO GAIN I FRICKING GUESS