Does anyone else's day get ruined when they wake up too early?

I started smoking again a few days ago, I've been good mostly so far but woke up early this morning and couldn't help to light one up when I was putting on my boots outside my front door (mud covered). Feels like I just can't get it right, I'm poor with basically nothing to my name. At least I have my dog and weed, and my gf can shred on the washboard. Wonder what'll happen next, is that the spice of life?