I got sick over Thanksgiving. This morning I took some cold meds and drank some hot tea. Realized after 2 big cups they gave me the caffeinated breakfast tea, not the herbal tea. Beyond straight edge at this point in my life, and I don't normally do caffeine or even cold meds, so that plus being sick made me all skincrawly. Figure I should jerk it out of my system. I coomed big.

Now I am filled with existential confusion and despair. Trying to find the right track for this and something to do.