Boyfriend holds me down and force feeds me - should I break up with him?

Pretty much what it says on the tin.

I tried every excuse in the world, but he just straight up does not care, holds me down and physically force feeds me. I learned to plan around this and told him that I only like certain foods (all of them very very low cal), so my intake is still very low, but it still bothers me, because I can't fast.

He also found out about my purging and won't let me. He watches my behavior very closely, so none of the old school tricks on hiding purging work and I can't just do it straight up either, because there aren't any lockable doors in my home, so he'd just burst in anyway, plus I'm pretty sure he'd straight up murder me after.

Are there any tips I haven't discovered yet, or will I have to learn some sort of martial art and fight him off haha?

He knows that I have a history of anorexia, but he doesn't know that I relapsed, and if he ever finds out I'm genuinely going to kill myself. Luckily for me, in his eyes, ana is not eating anything ever, so even if I'm at like 300 cals a day, as long as I'm eating two times a day, he thinks I'm good, but he's starting to get increasingly worried and I'm running out of excuses. He bought the ,,Oh my stomach is just soooo small, so I have to havy tiny portions, I can't help that I get full from one third of a banana” lie really well at first, but again, he's getting suspicious. Uuuuugh, I just need someone to tell me what to do. Please? I love him so much, but I would rather amputate all of my limbs with a butter knife than recover. Or eat as much as he wants me to.

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