what's the most orthexic thing you've done today?

So if you guys didn't know, "orthorexia" is a tumblr-pathologization of eating healthy. There's literally nothing wrong with it but the people who identify as orthorexics (rather than normal people who just happen to eat healthy) are kinda weird. They're all neurodivergent white women btw. Anyway, here are the struggles they have to put up with daily:

trashed the sausages and bacon out of somebody else's supermarket sandwich. it's 6:58am.

context: ❌ has been away for a few weeks, and in that time, my mother's decided to eat more nutritious foods/watch out for her health + lost over a stone/14lb in the process. then ❌ came back and he's been trying to sabotage her ever since by springing nonfood on her despite her making it clear she's trying to be more food-conscious, but ❌ is always all "do you want to get a takeaway? i bought us both microwave meals [and didn't ask you]. i bought a 2-pack of cream cakes; you can have one."

and because she doesn't have the energy to put up a fight, half the time, she'll eat what he gives her. it's unfair that someone who treats their body like a scrapheap should try and interfere with someone consciously trying to improve their own and i'm not here for that shit.

so last night ❌ comes home from the chip-shop and did a detour to the supermarket where he picked her up a packaged sandwich from the reduced section — not that she asked him to or ever does — obv inherently shit on account of the bread and the processed meat, but it's got room for damage control. it's a "turkey and trimmings" seasonal sandwich w/ turkey, sausage, bacon, stuffing and cranberry sauce.

it's gonna be inedible no matter what, but since this is a case of her not having the energy to make herself lunch in the mornings, i picked out the bacon and the sausage, threw it away and dabbed down the sauce on the bread so now it's just a lower-cal turkey sandwich with a bit of sugary cranberry jam.

not as much of a win as earlier in the week replacing the maggi noodles in the house with additive-free wholewheat noodle nests but still necessary improv. feeders are the fricking devil.

my newest habit is picking up plastic junk wrappers from the pavement and binning them just so people have one or two fewer sources of subliminal advertising over the course of their day.

my marbles are fricking gone at this point. they're not coming back. brain shrinkage behaviour.

junk-destroying ritual now ❌ is outta the country for a month. soaped and binned 2 pots of creme caramel, half a loaf of seeded supermarket bread, hazelnut loaf cake and a bunch of tex-mex dips. kitchen is clean and i can breathe easy again

you think bakery is better? Worse betrayal of my life, I built up the courage to go buy bread at a nice (SO I THOUGHT) fancy bakery, I saw a great looking loaf with a shitload of seeds labelled "wholemeal" so my brain stopped working (LOL AS IF) and I brought it home. I start eating it.......... tastes sus af....... google it : oh, thats why it's called "japanese" because it has fricking eggs in it, and maybe even milk I dont even want to know I'm fricking fuming. I literally feel nauseous, so if i'm lucky those fricking eggs are gonna make me puke and send it back into the potty where it belongs. I'm so defeated and sad (and mad at myself that I didnt ask the chick what made it "japanese").

SO NOW YOU HAVE TO ASK THE BAKER IF THE BREAD IS VEGAN?

I'm so mad. Cant have anything.

stayed up late making this micronutrient spreadsheet for foods that I like 😭 😭 😭 😭 entered in each value by hand lmao and I have like 10 more foods to go

I've apparently been holding my breath when I add powdered creamer and splenda to my grandma's coffee. I had to use my spoon to scoop it and immediately washed it to decontaminate. Yeah, I'm gonna work on that. Its a little too far.

It's a tie between the following:

Spent minutes standing on a street corner while on a walk before I could talk myself out of buying a vegan burger and fries at one of two restaurants within view with this menu option.

Freaked out about the carbs in nutritious foods like legumes, beans, carrots, and strawberries. I am puzzled by my own disordered thoughts.

Restricted protein intake because I am terrified of overdoing it and increasing my risk of developing cancer.

Chose to walk an extra few miles rather than pick up a few hours at work.

Ate cups of berries.

Felt like everything considered edible is really poisonous.

!thin !vegana