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I am a short, low muscle mass high bodyfat receeded hairline white ginger britbonger who grew up in an area of London that is almost exclusively African diaspora, lots of Kenyans, Ugandans, Somalis, Nigerians, Somalis. My Dad was a Muslim convert and he was involved in the Somali fight against US forces and when he came home after being injured Somali friends helped him get set up in the area. But basically we were the only white people there at all.

I was basically protected because of Dads status within the Muslim community and except for some light bullying, the tough older lads from my area protected me at school when I would get fricked with and I could walk around the area despite it being pretty sketch for a white person to be in. I was a very soft sweet kid and practically all my friends were these tall athletic girls who lived on my street. I would hang out at their houses, do braids and locs, eat ugali and beans and chapatti and as a result everyone just assumed I was gay but being a good Muslim and resisting desires by just chilling with girls.

But in reality I basically learned to really connect and understand girls and I would exclusively date these tall black tough girls and the dynamic was as follows:

I make all the food, I was a really good cook, mainly African food but I can do a real curry with a base gravy and perfectly tender goat or lamb, I can cook Ugali, fufu, Chipatti, coconut beans, talapia, kachumbari etc. I would usually stay at home as I was shy and cook, clean, they would be working retail or salon or warehouse jobs and come home to me.

I would be given gifts by girlfriends, really spoiled and nurtured, we would always be poor but I was essentially a kept man and they would often choose my outfits and decide what we were doing if we went out.

Sexually I was always the one getting fricked. I am not talking about anything BDSM but like they would initiate, they would always do the work in the bedroom and I would spend most of my time giving oral and massages. It wasn't some weird porn fetish domination, it was always like nurturing and encouraging and they would call me baby and tell me how cute I am.

I literally go from girlfriend to girlfriend (always insist on nikkah before anything sexual all you need is a few witnesses and someone to conduct it its easy and the Hanafi school requires no wali to consent).

I am always far shorter and softer both mentally and physically than my partner. My current wife is 6,1, she is incredibly athletic, aggressive and extroverted, we go out and she will be in big heels, jeans, long top and hijab and she will insist we hold hands and if anyone starts any shit she is like a protective gadaffi bodyguard.

I never really thought much of this, maybe a bit unusual but nothing that strange for someone whose early romantic relationships were all of a specific type, obviously that is going to affect future romantic proclivities. But last week I was at a coffee shop with friends and they all started rinsing me about the face I am basically a weird skinny yet obese, balding but long haired guy who constantly has a serena williams wife. It was light hearted (they are all black guys) but they were all basically like yeah its weird you only date tall athletic black women and have zero interest in white women or even pakistanis or arabs considering I am well embeded in the Muslim community and have options to.

Does this sound like it is unhealthy? Am I getting in my own head because of simple joking between friends? My first partner was like 6 foot and super bossy and I was 14 and she was 19. I am now paranoid I was somehow broken at an early age and I am in some super unhealthy relationship cycle and have failed to realise.