Husband getting freebase for 3rd time in less than 2 weeks. Says I should just deal with it. : TwoHotTakes

38M husband has got freebase 3 times in less than 2 weeks. I 38F am at a loss

Update- he is now getting it again 3rd time in a week and a half. I'm about to just file for divorce. I'm sick and tired of this shit.

My 38F husband 38M is getting base or as I know it crack. He has been acting weird last few days. Finally comes out and says that a guy that sold him drugs a few years ago texted him and said he could hook him up. My husband told me this today. He used do this shit years back and he almost cheated on me. He gets “super sexual” as he puts it. A few years back he met with escorts to get drugs. After that didn't pan out he somehow got this guys number and started buying from him. Anyway. I am completely blindsided by this. I told him that this is a hard pass and I don't want him to get it. I said he will lose me if he does it. He said “I'm just trying to have fun with you” now I don't do drugs unless it's like smoking a joint which I do like maybe once every 2 years but nothing like coke or base/crack. I still haven't fully gotten over the fact that he met escorts to get the shit last time and lied to me and it really was a horrible time. I know I'll probably get shit for asking but I reacted by crying and basically telling him he doesn't give a shit about me or my feelings. Did I overreact? He hasn't done this in years and I'm so triggered that this is happening again. The last time he tried to get on tinder as well. He is also recently sober from alcohol about three months. Says this isn't about hurting me when I told him clearly this will hurt me. Honestly I feel like he just cares about his own wants and doesn't give two shits about my feelings.

update He got it and now is planning to get more this weekend. He told me “I should just deal with it because he doesn't want to lose me” Maybe at this point I don't deserve anything better and should just resign to the fact he's going to do whatever he wants regardless of how much it hurts.