(colossal woman L) Worst s*x of my life trying to be a wingman for my friend : TwoXChromosomes

This might be long but I really just have to get this off my chest.

I'm currently studying abroad in Czech Republic and for the Thanksgiving holiday I decided to meet a college friend who is studying abroad in Italy. We met through the sorority we joined three years ago, and have been friends ever since. She's a good friend, one of the handful of girls in the sorority that I actually enjoy. However, she's always been a little selfish. For lack of a better word, she's a little dumb, so I excuse her selfishness because of that. This time, though, I'm really hurt by it.

My first night visiting we went to a bar and we starting making out with this pair of brothers. My dude was kinda cute in my opinion, but her's was the cuter one. I was fine just making out with him, but I didn't want to sleep with him.

He walked me back to her apartment, and her and his brother were a little behind us. We kept making out and touching, but I was ready to go to bed. My friend and her man catch up to us at the door of the apartment and I tell her I'm tired. “You don't wanna go back with him?” She said to me. I felt so awkward because he was standing right in front of me, so I just kept saying I was tired. She obviously wanted to bring her man back up to her apartment, kept ignoring the fact that I wasn't really feeling like going back to the brother's apartment, and just said “don't worry, he'll wake you up in the morning.” So I went.

At this point I'm like fine, I haven't had s*x in a while and he was attractive to me, so I guess I'll have it. We get back to his apartment, smoke a joint, make out, and he pulls his pants down and it's literally a micropeepee. Maybe like 2-3 inches. I'm immediately turned off, but now I feel stuck. He puts a condom on, trying to tell me what to do and be hot, but I was so turned off. I didn't feel safe to say no because it was his apartment and he was way too excited. The condom was huge on him, and while I was laying on my back, he had to let me know that it was inside. At one point he slipped out and literally started humping the crease between my thigh and my gut, thinking he was in me. I laid there miserable, and so I said how I was tired, hinting that I didn't want to keep going. He looked me in the eyes and said “are you lying to me?” I was terrified. No.. no I said. He got up off me aggressively and went pack to finishing the joint. I sat there scared. Let me just act like this is fine I told myself, i genuinely didn't feel like I could leave. I don't know why. We had the lamest excuse for s*x after that, him forgetting I said I was tired probably on purpose. Again, he was humping my thigh. I didn't want him inside of me at all so I just sat there and pretending like he was doing the right thing. I practically ran out at 6am when my friend texted and asked when I was coming back.

Next day, I tell her trying to make light out of it, a funny story, and she laughs of course which I don't mind because I wanted to laugh about it. Then, she goes onto tell me that she didn't even have s*x with her man, and then proceeds to make fun of how ugly my man was, telling her other roommates how I wanted to go back with him and how obsessed with him I was. I was embarrassed, and I got mad and snippy because I literally made it obvious that I didn't want to go back with him.

I'm ashamed, I'm disappointed that I couldn't stick up for myself more, and she's only making me feel worse. It's been two days since and tomorrow I leave to go back to Prague so I kind of let it go now. I want to have a good rest of time with her. She hasn't mentioned it today, so I'm glad. I just feel like shit about it, and it makes me upset that she spoke about it in the way that she did after and made fun of me. Needless to say, I'm excited to go back to Prague tomorrow and take care of myself, spend some time alone and recoup. Thanks for reading

EDIT: forgot to mention that he did eat me out, and it was good but he did it after finishing the joint in an effort to try to get me in the mood. Still, he ignored me saying I was tired. Head is head though, so I can't complain. Everything besides that was an absolute nightmare though.