What possesses the redditor to post such an L "My ex bf impregnated me without consent and is making fun of me on TikTok"

since OP is lazyposting:

He came inside me without discussing if it was ok or asking for my consent. When I found out I was pregnant (because of the negative symptoms I quickly began experiencing) he said it was my fault that “you knocked yourself up” and broke up with me. He claimed that I TOLD him to do it and that I coerced HIM into coming in me??? And he was very fixated on the idea that I had somehow said I was “taking my pill to a tee” which is so opposite to the truth I have no idea where it comes from. Not only did i tell him my SSRIs complicate my BC pills, he knew I'm terrible at remembering to take my meds regularly. He even promised at one point to text me twice a day to remind me to take my meds. (I knew he would never remember to, and he never did).

Because I found out I was pregnant in a different state where I go to college, I was forced to carry it for a month before the abortion. I was almost hospitalized several times and it fricked up the end of my semester. I am glad that I went through it alone and not with my monster ex, but I'm so so angry that I had to go through it at all.

Now he's making fun of the whole situation with his friends and releasing music with pictures of sickly, disfigured, demonic babies as the cover art. And making tiktoks on several different public accounts referring to the songs saying “this is my son, he's coming out in a week so please support me so i can afford to feed my pets”.

It all makes me so angry and humiliated. He gets to publicly make fun of what was a life-threatening ordeal for me. It was one of the most painful experiences I've ever been through, and he was the one who caused all that pain. The vindictive part of me wants to blast his name everywhere and tell his friends what actually happened because I'm sure he's telling them the lies he told me (that I somehow coerced HIM into get me pregnant). But the scared part of me wants to pretend it never happened because being impregnated and left immediately after is so embarrassing.

Edit: I was just venting and did not expect so many comments, so forgive me for not responding to everything right away as I process things. For now I want to clear this one thing up. I fully understand I am responsible for not taking my pills at the same time each day, and for my decision to not use a condom. There are also medical reasons I use the pill, so thank you to everyone who suggested IUDs etc, but it's a bit more complicated that that. I also knew there was a risk of me getting pregnant, which again, I had told my ex! I do normally use condoms, but we were in a committed relationship and he was unable to get hard using one. I felt guilty, like i was depriving him of pleasure by making him wear them. We had discussed this part and he told me he hated them so yes, we had not been using condoms- a choice I made, but also a choice he made. He did get me plan B the next day, which I took 36 hours after cumblast (again not perfect because I was throwing up too much before and I wanted to be sure I would digest it). I also understand, now and then, that it is stupid to trust a man to pull out, and stupider to have s*x with a man I couldn't discuss all my boundaries and feelings with.

That reminds me, I have to make time to watch The Suckling (1990).

The moid ain't gonna be laughing when he starts needing to send child support...