let's just say it got worse. I was able to pass a teensy bit with a lot of pain. my body basically forced me to shit. this small passage has re-actived the anal fissure.

i will be pausing progesterone and spironolactone, and i will be cutting my estrogen dose in half. prog/estrogen can cause constipation, same reason why pregnant women get constipated. spironolactone makes you pee a lot and dehydrates you, which works against the ideal of hydrated scowtools. i ordered miralax and dulcolax suppository from instacart. currently waiting for the wagie to deliver them. keep in mind its like 2am here. i will take the Miralax tonight and try again in the morning. i might also go for a bike ride. the dulcolax suppository is the doomsday option, if all else fails. that would probably tear open the fissure, but it's my last resort.

the most annoying part is its right there. i could totally shit it out. under normal circumstances, i would be able to shit it out. but these arent normal circumstances. i have an anal fissure. any large scowtools WILL re-active the anal fissure. after previous traumatic events, i am terrified to even try. It is currently bitching, i basically have to wait until tomorrow for the softeners to take effect and the anal fissure to somewhat heal.

just kill me

update I AM FREE https://rdrama.net/post/294849