Appendix E β A Textbook Case Study in Human Rights
My name is Erica Smith and from 2016-2023 I was a postdoctoral fellow at Indiana
University, a Fermilab User, and a member of the NOvA and DUNE Experiments. My
interactions with the Fermi Research Alliance and various members of Fermilab
leadership have been frustrating at best and harmful at worst. Their actions have left
the impression on myself and others that they prioritize maintaining a positive
reputation by trying to make problems go away at the expense of victims over
cultivating a safe working environment for Fermilab employees and Users. This is my
experience.
In May 2018, I reported another Fermilab User and member of the NOvA and DUNE
experiments to the Neutrino Division's Human Resources Representative, which, at
that time, was the only avenue to report misconduct, including sexual misconduct.
The HR representative brought in the assistant general counsel almost immediately,
and they began an investigation that would continue over the next several months
and was handled poorly in a number of ways.
In the month following my report, I had multiple phone calls with the HR
representative and assistant general counsel, emailed them a written summary of my
report, and sent pdfs of text chats with friends that had detailed descriptions of the
incidents. They asked me to schedule an in-person meeting with them; when I tried,
they told me they were going on vacation and they would follow up when they
returned. After a month with no contact, I followed up again and they told me we no
longer needed to meet. The investigators did not contact me again until scheduling
our final meetings months later; I received updates only because my supervisor
reached out to the person who was COO in 2018 to check the status of the
investigation.
Before they stopped contacting me, the assistant general counsel and HR
representative assured me they would inform me when they were going to interview
the subject of the report so I would know when he became aware of the report, as we
were still working on the same experiments together. They did not; I found out that
they interviewed him long after the interview took place.
At no point during the investigation was I told who would know about the
investigation or how much information they would receive. I found out the 2018 COO
was involved only because someone I reported to at a different institution told me he
had been contacted by the COO. I was not told that the general counsel would be
involved until he attended our final meeting in September 2018 without ever having
been mentioned to me or copied on emails with me. I heard from others that the head
of the Neutrino Division, a person that I had interacted with professionally, knew of
the report, but they were unsure how many details he knew. Imagine giving a
professional talk and not knowing who in the room had read graphic descriptions of
a traumatic experience that you shared only with close friends, never thinking that
anyone else would read them; this is the result of having investigators with no
training in trauma-informed investigations.
When the investigation ended in September 2018, they told me: "the result of our
investigation is that FRA is unable to conclude that there was a violation or threat to
the Fermilab community or site for which FRA can take personnel or site access
action, recognizing that FRA does not manage the NOvA collaboration and FRA does
not employ or contract with either you or [him]." I asked if they determined
misconduct did or did not take place and received the same statement in an email
from the 2018 COO with no further clarification.
Because FRA refused to give an actual finding from the investigation, NOvA leadership
was not able to take action to protect me at work; to keep doing my job, I was forced
to interact with him during our multiple weekly phone meetings, via our experiment's
public Slack channels, and during in-person meetings. I had at least one panic attack
at every in-person meeting that we both attended for the next year, and had sporadic
panic attacks during our phone meetings. During this year, working group leadership
assignments changed, and I found myself reporting directly to him for a short time. I
was diagnosed with unspecified trauma disorder and saw a trauma therapist at least
weekly β multiple times a week leading up to in-person meetings β just to be able to
show up at work. I struggled deeply with my mental health and lost months of
productivity vital to securing a permanent position in academia.
At the end of 2019, I requested that NOvA leadership find an external investigator as
was allowed by the NOvA Code of Conduct, thinking that because FRA did not actually
present a finding of fact as part of their investigation, I should be afforded an
investigator who would. At that time, NOvA leadership agreed and in early 2020 I was
told that they identified an external consultant to investigate and would contact the
DOE to find funding for it. After the subject of the original report was notified that I
requested an external investigator he weaponized Fermilab HR against me, reporting
me for "making defamatory statements." His report was not treated as retaliation, and
the new COO as of 2020 emailed me saying that "FRA is not the 'trier of fact' in
determining whether [my] statements are false and defamatory and FRA is the wrong
forum to seek relief in your ongoing grievance with each other. Therefore, FRA
declines to take up [his] complaint, and considers the matter closed." She also stated,
regarding the 2018 report, that "FRA concluded, based on the facts identified in the
investigation, that no further action was warranted." After I received this email, NOvA
leadership told me the line "no further action was warranted" was enough of a finding
from the original investigation and they would not move forward with an external
investigator.
After FRA chose to abdicate all responsibility regarding this situation for the second
time, the subject of the report began a campaign of online harassment against me.
Over the course of several months, he impersonated me on Twitter, posted nude
pictures of other women pretending to be me, and gave my phone number to men
who contacted the fake profiles so they would send me nude pictures. He signed me
up for hundreds of websites including porn sites and Nazi-affiliated websites (such as rdrama dot net). He used
my home address to sign me up for subscription services and even had someone come
to my address with a baby-proofing service. He sent anonymous threats of violence
via text and Twitter DM, and threatened to deceive police into sending an armed
response to my address. I contacted my local law enforcement multiple times to
ensure they had a note to confirm any reports of violence at my address before
sending an armed response. I bought a portable lock for my door and kept a baseball
bat near my desk because I was afraid of where he might be publishing my home
address. In mid-2020 I hired a lawyer to find proof of his harassment and bring a
lawsuit against him. We won the lawsuit in October 2022; you can find the press
release from my lawyers here:
https://www.brettwilson.co.uk/blog/press-release-academic-pays-50000-
damages-to-colleague-falsely-touted-online-as-a-s*x-worker/ and an article in The
Guardian written about the situation here:
https://www.theguardian.com/education/2022/oct/12/former-ucl-academic-to-
pay-damages-after-harassing-colleague-for-months .
During the harassment campaign and the subsequent lawsuit, he continued to
interact with me in public Slack channels and gave unprompted feedback on my work
during weekly phone meetings. I realized I could no longer tolerate being forced to
interact with him, and for my mental health, I left the working group I had been in for
nearly 4 years. I picked up a new analysis in a working group in which he was not
active, effectively abandoning all my previous work and putting me extremely behind
in terms of showing prospective search committees I was capable of a complete
physics analysis, an essential part of being hired as tenure track faculty.
After the lawsuit was public, I was contacted by the new Fermilab director and new
CRO to have a meeting. In November 2022 I met with them, the same Fermilab general
counsel from 2018, and my lawyer, and told them everything I've said in this
testimonial. Their general counsel even agreed with me when I told them I felt I had
been "ghosted" by the original investigators. During this meeting, I received a lot of
promises that the system would change, but I've seen no evidence that it has.
I will note that the Fermilab reporting system has changed since I reported, and one
now makes reports through a third-party system. However, I've listened to multiple
presentations on the topic and while the reporting system itself has changed, reports
are still investigated by "subject matter experts"
at Fermilab. Despite asking for
clarification on what this means, particularly in the case of sexual harassment and
assault β who at Fermilab is an "expert" in investigating that?
β there has never been
a clear answer other than to say that they are employed by Fermilab, i.e., people
beholden to protecting the interests of Fermilab and FRA, not employees or Users.
This is a problem that has been pointed out, at the very least, to Fermilab's general
counsel, but to my knowledge no changes have been made to the investigative
process.
The problem starts at the top, with FRA and the Fermilab directorate. Everyone who
hears about my experience agrees that it was terrible, including the people with the
power to ensure it doesn't happen again, yet, all I've seen is leadership sitting on their
hands while claiming their hands are tied. Things will never change until Fermilab
learns the meaning of institutional courage and stops prioritizing protecting bad
actors to avoid legal retaliation over creating and maintaining a safe working
environment.
There is no happy ending to this testimonial. I left the field in 2023 as the lost
productivity through the majority of my postdoc affected my ability to get a
permanent position. I've been unemployed for months, trying to recover from all that
has happened to me. None of this had to happen; if FRA had acted appropriately in
2018, I might still be a physicist today. I'll never know. There is one silver lining that
came from my experience, which was coauthoring a 54 page contributed paper
regarding the climate of the field where my focus was experiment codes of conduct
and concrete suggestions to labs and funding agencies to make the changes needed
to effectively remove bad actors, which can be found here
https://arxiv.org/abs/2204.03713 , and support for these suggestions was included
in the P5 report. I may no longer be part of the field, but perhaps my experiences will
mean others in the future don't have to go through what I went through; that will have
to be enough.
Appendix H βA Textbook Case of Cover-up
We are going to describe here below a textbook case of elaborate cover-up. Inthe following is a summary of the story. More details of the events can be found in the documentation provided by the witnesses, shown later. In this Appendix the names of the witnesses are not shown for their own protection. However, for everybody else we decided to use actual first names and sometimes also last names for accountability. A reason is that any statement described here can be corroborated by a dozen witnesses willing to come forward in a court of law. Sometime in 2022, former Operation Maintenance Superintendent Greg at the Infrastructure Services Division (ISD), under Mark T. Jeffers as Senior Director, assigned Randy an unofficial position of Foreman for a large group of electricians and other employees of an ISD shop. Randy, Greg and Jeffers were all former Military personnel or contractors. A few months later, Randy was officially promoted to Foreman without any interview or posting of the position. He was known for threatening/ harassing people by whispering bloody and graphic scenes in their ears, and also claimed to carry a loaded gun at all times, either on his ankle or in his truck. Before the official promotion occurred, a majority of the team in the shop tried to prevent it. An electrician from this team brought Greg a petition signed by 12 employees (names available), over a total of 14 from the shop, asking to remove him from the position. After reading the petition, not only did Greg toss it back to the messenger, but he also broke confidentiality and informed Randy of that petition. Nothing changed when the original electrician brought forward a female electrician and former veteran, to another private meeting on 12/12/2022 with Greg so she could testify to all kinds of harassment from Randy and Dave, another employee from the shop. In this case too, Greg immediately informed Randy what was said in this confidential meeting before the two witnesses even left Building 38 where Greg's office was located. The witnesses were soon informed by colleagues that Randy was after them! At that point, the witnesses had no other recourse than going to HR and were told to leave the premises asap. Security and the Kane County Sheriff were called and they stopped Randy before he left the site. However, despite FNAL policies stating that Security has the right (and duty) to check a vehicle when on site, THEY DID NOT DO IT and let the guy leave. The female witness had been repeatedly harassed also by peer electrician Dave. The latter became obsessed with her and in Spring of 2022 he backed a 25,000 pound bucket truck at her and another peer in the parking lot near Lab A. She and her peer were nearly crushed by Dave
and they got out of this alive only because the peer was able to promptly back their van away from the truck coming at them! The female victim's electrical supervisor, DJ, was present and did not do anything to discipline the perpetrator. With all these events happening, as noted, HR at some point became involved. The two witnesses met and cooperated with HR, and also provided detailed statements in writing (see also in the following). At this stage the first witness had a meeting with ISD Senior Director Mark Jeffers too. The electrician had the signed petition with him and handed it over to Jeffers. The latter looked at it, but would not take it. In January of 2023, the electrician was called to a meeting with former COO Scott Tingey, current lab Deputy Director Bonnie Fleming, current ISD Senior Director Mark Jeffers, the entire lab legal team, and former HR interim Senior Director Jennifer Gondorchin. While faced by this whole crowd, he was proffered some hollow statements, with no resulting disciplinary action whatsoever for Greg breaking the confidentiality of private meetings and putting lives in danger; and for Dave, despite his attempt at badly hurting others. Despite the presence of several witnesses, Dave did not receive any disciplinary action, and is still employed at the lab. For all of his misdeeds, Randy was given one week of unpaid leave of absence as only disciplinary measure. He is still employed at the lab and was further promoted. And Greg, Randy's abettor, was promoted too and retired only recently. In fact, the above facts were not the first time that Randy had misbehaved. As a Union Steward for Local 701, the original witness kept all his confidential documents in a locked drawer in his office in Building 39. These documents included various types of votes for submission to the Union. In January of 2022, Randy entered his office one night, broke into his desk and stole all of his confidential documents. He then proceeded to transfer them to the Union. His accomplices at the Union took the documents instead of giving them back to their rightful owner and then fired the Union Steward from his position. He reported this theft to HR and to the ISD Head Mark Jeffers on March 2022, but no disciplinary action was taken even then. Because of the total lack of protection and of safety for her own life, the female witness was forced to quit the lab sometime in 2023. Similarly, 6 other electricians from this toxic group under Al and Greg have left the lab between January 2022 and May 2023. In October 2023 the original witness was tasked to take care of the electrical system for a new well pump that had been installed between the master substation and the fire station. A few days after performing that job, the electrician was driving by the well and saw the truck of mechanical lead Omar. He stopped and found the latter inside a hot electrical cabinet 480 Vac 400 Amps. Omar had completely undone his wiring. Mechanical foreman Mike was watching him undo his work while violating most electrical safety policies. The latter did nothing to stop him. The electrician reported the policy violations to his boss Frank and nothing was done. At the same time, the electrician was also interviewing for the electrical foreman position with Greg and his electrical supervisor Frank in November 2023. Frank had repeatedly told the technician that he was his only choice for the foreman position. On the Friday before Thanksgiving week, Frank called the electrician and requested him to postpone his vacation week to go see his family in Michigan for a very important job. The actual reason was instead to report to Greg's office to be informed that he had not been given the foreman job. The electrician was fired when he sent out an upset phone text to his supervisor, mentioning Omar and Mike sabotaging the well, and threatening to report Greg for doing nothing about it. Greg saw the electrician's text by taking Frank's phone. The following more detailed information was also part of written Documentation provided by the original witness to Heather A. Sidman at HR onDec. 16, 2022. "Events of 12/12/2022 Months ago, Randy was unofficially given a Foreman position at our shop and paid as such. Like I said when I spoke with you, I have repeatedly gone to meet with Mr. Gilbert to discuss Randy being permanently promoted into the Electrical Foreman Position. During these discussions with Mr. Gilbert, one in particular that took place in early October, I brought Mr. Gilbert a signed petition of a dozen members of our electrical shop that are fearful of Randy continuing in this position and possibly being permanently assigned to this position. Despite me stating that I had a petition with a dozen electricians' signatures, Mr. Gilbert was unconcerned. He didn't ask me to see it. When I nevertheless handed it to him, he tossed the petition back at me once he read the names. He also never indicated he would be conducting any sort of investigation. I felt Mr. Gilbert didn't take any of my accusations seriously. Upon leaving that meeting that day at 3:30 pm, Randy was somehow informed that I had brought in a petition signed by a dozen of electricians who did not want him to be assigned a permanent position of shop foreman. During this meeting with Mr. Gilbert, I stated that "Randy is an instigator, relishes promoting drama between fellow employees, tells violent stories of hurting people, and is not very stable." In this meeting with Mr. Gilbert, I explained that the electrical group is extremely concerned about Randy being given the foreman position. Mr. Gilbert did not ask me to go into more detail about our concerns or ask any more specifics about Randy. To my knowledge, Mr. Gilbert has never subsequently interviewed anyone in our shop, nor did he remove Randy from the position of Foreman. It is my belief, that Mr. Gilbert, almost immediately after I spoke with him, violated my confidentiality and informed Randy of our meeting. Roughly one week later I had another discussion with Mr. Gilbert to relate several examples of Randy's deception, lying about several facts, and creating anger in our shop. Again, Mr. Gilbert to my knowledge did nothing about our concerns. Roughly one month later I was interviewing with Mr. Gilbert, Rick, and John for an open position in our shop. Immediately following the interview, John stated "interview is over, now I have some questions for you." John asked why I had attacked my fellow electrician Frank some weeks ago? When the event in question happened, I had gone to Mr. Gilbert's office that same day and explained this incident to him between Frank and myself. I explained that Randy was the catalyst of the whole misunderstanding between myself and Frank. From that day forward, Frank and I apologized to each other and realized that Randy was responsible for our misunderstanding. After relating the entire story to Mr. Gilbert weeks earlier, why would I have to sit in an interview for a job position and hear a false hostile story presented by John and be forced to repeat the incident when it was already discussed by Mr. Gilbert the day the incident happened. Mr. Gilbert said nothing about how I came to him immediately the day of this altercation, he sat there and said nothing, that forced me to defend myself and my character to a hostile John. That character "attack" on me from John, which I believed came to them from Randy, forced me into a disagreement of how they viewed the event and caused me to explain we have terrified electricians in our shop, at which time I was FINALLY asked to give them a name. I said that our female colleague is terrified of Randy and Dave. Greg's response was "now I have to interview her." This reluctance on performing an objective investigation is consistent with the fact that Mr. Gilbert did not take the petition when it was originally presented to him which ironically contained the signature of our female colleague among others. I believe Mr. Gilbert and John had made their disdain for the electrical group clear and that they wanted to put someone in a position of power to reinforce their intimidating, dishonest, and horrible culture regardless of the consequences. In the meeting on 12/12/22 between Greg, Rick, our female colleague and myself, we mentioned to Mr. Gilbert that Randy also brags about having a loaded gun on Fermilab site. Following that statement, my female colleague and I felt Mr. Gilbert viewed our concern as rumor and conjecture rather than a bona fide safety issue. I would like to know if he immediately notified HR of my female colleague and my concerns or did he say nothing and go to the Holiday party instead? I have never been as scared as when it was made clear to her and myself that Randy was aware of us meeting with Greg Gilbert and the accusations that were made. Someone once again has violated the confidentiality of myself, her, and our meetings with Mr. Gilbert. Despite our female colleague reporting to Mr. Gilbert that Randy approached her in the past and whispered in her ear something to the effect of "I'm a Marine I miss killing people," upper management has essentially placed both of our lives and our families lives in a horrible situation. Both myself and my female colleague are in fear for our lives because lab security and the Kane County sheriff's office failed to search his truck, essentially allowing a person who makes racist and violent statements on a regular basis to fellow employees exit the site with the possibility of having a loaded weapon. I now sit at my house on administrative leave with my 21-year-old daughter scared to death knowing he still has that gun and knows exactly who spoke up about him. This process was filled with leaks and lies and took everything I had left as a concerned employee to keep pressing the serious nature of Randy being promoted. Our "shop culture" is such that if you bring any stated concerns to management and they're deemed inconvenient or seem unbelievable, management tends to sweep them under the rug while simultaneously informing the accused of their accusers resulting in either their careers or personal safety jeopardized. Chauncey from HR brought up "culture" and why did we wait so long to bring this to the attention of our supervisors? Clearly, this is not the case. I personally, along with several others in our shop, have repeatedly brought the issue of Randy as a dangerous individual to the attention of Greg and John over a 4-month period. Given management's lack of response to any of the previous concerns we did not feel confident in reporting what Randy said he was carrying, fearing that the lab would tell Randy and allow him to get offsite with the weapon. WHICH IN FACT IS WHAT EXACTLY HAPPENED!!! In this day an age of mass shootings I would never have anticipated such a lackluster response to the accusations of an employee possessing a weapon on site! To be clear, Randy is a very capable electrician but unfortunately, he is completely devoid of any ability to interact with his peers in a respectful manner and routinely engages in incendiary racist and other inacceptable rhetoric." Some additional detailed information, which was also part of written documentation provided by the female witness to Heather A. Sidman in December 2022, is presented below. "Randy First day that I showed up to Fermilab, I met Randy, we talked about how we were both in the military and both in Afghanistan (me as a Marine and him as a contractor), and he explained to me about how he hated all Muslims and that as far as he is concerned, "they should drop a bomb on the entire middle east". The first time I worked with Randy we were wiring an outlet. He asked me if I knew about the color coordination in relation to the outlets, after he told me I said, "hmm, did not know that". After working with him, he went to DJ's office and told him that I was too dumb to work there and that the only reason I got the job was because I was a woman and I was Latinx. He complained about this also at meetings with my peers present and told them that I only got the job because I knew DJ (not sure what he was implying, if it was that we had a relationship or if it was because DJ, others and I did come from Caterpillar). He said I wasn't journeyman material so I shouldn't have ever gotten hired. One day that I was working with Randy, he asked me what we would say in one of our drill moves (I think it was either a left face or right face) in the military because when he was in they would say "whoosh" which is the sound that would come out of their vaginas (can't remember if he said vagina or kitties) when they would close their legs. One of the first times I worked with Randy, he described to me a story of a time when Doug and himself had gotten into an argument (this took place before I started at Fermilab). I had been aware of the story and Doug said that it was because Randy had said some nasty things about some of the women that had just made it into office along with AOC (Alexandria Ocasio Cortez). Others were present at the time because it was at the morning meeting. Randy's version was that he didn't say anything wrong and that Doug flipped out on him without knowing what he really meant. Then he continued on with his story and said something about stabbing Doug in the neck with a pen if he ever tried anythingβ¦ He said "I got a ball point pen and if he ever tries anythingβ¦. I'll stab him in the neck and watch him bleed out". In passing one day I was in my cubicle, he approached and said something along the lines of "I miss killing people". I just looked at him and looked away. He called our female maintenance planner a "stupid b-word" and a "dumb c*nt." " The following is a testimonial from a former female Maintenance Planner/Scheduler at ISD. This is a widow who raised many successful children as a single mother. "Randy was described to me by most as a ticking time bomb and that he was ready to go off on people. In particular, he had repeatedly expressed hate for Rob and was on the verge of wanting to hurt him. It didn't take long for me to be faced with the same. Once he told me a joke about an old woman being r*ped. He called people foul names and called me foul names too to my face and he didn't care who else was around. He called his own daughters bitches, as in: "I have two daughters and they can do so much better than you, those bitchesβ¦ Oh, look they can't believe I'm calling my daughters bitches, well they are, women are bitches by the very nature that they are women". The most horrific stories that he told us were about prostitutes from his time in the Marine Corps. One story that he was telling everybody was about buying a cheap watch in the Middle East and passing it as an authentic brand and then using it to pay for a prostitute so that he short-changed her. Another story from when he was in the military was about going out one night in the Philippines to look for a prostitute with some military buddies. They apparently found one, but could not stand that she was transgender and, according to him, they all killed her!!! Also, we all knew that he went shooting with Dave and that he kept a gun with him at all times, either in his truck or on his ankle. As a former maintenance manager for 25 years at a pharmaceuticals corporation first, and at a medical innovative engineering company next, I had never seen such obsolete equipment, and such lack of correct procedures. When I was hired in 2022, I was not given a working computer for 4 months! The ISD maintenance management system was incredibly antiquated. When I was there, they were replacing it with an allegedly more modern one, which did not work either! The equipment is in horrible shape also because when a work order wasn't done, they would hit "delete" and get it next year. WOW ! It's a horrible way to operate. Not effective at all. That's the norm at the lab. Electrical and mechanical systems were down, fire alarms were down, the equipment was in shamble. Because they were not OSHA compliant, I have seen so many of their electricians operating in totally unsafe conditions. I was told that OSHA is not needed there as they are the Federal government and it doesn't apply! Even some parts of the tunnel were collapsing. It is the worst facility equipment I've ever seen in my 25 year career managing facilities. The organization is not federal, they are just funded by the government and they have to be OSHA compliant. The fact that it is not, makes it incredibly dangerous. Tax payers money to fund such a fraudulent place. No accountability for anything. In the entire campus the leadership is nonexistent. A bunch of words to make it sound good but as we know it's the actions that matter, and Fermilab is negligent in every way. They just cover it up and keep sociopaths employed. It's the most dangerous and disgraceful place I've ever experienced. For instance, in June 2022 there was a nearly fatal accident that happened to a diver from a Chicago diving company who nearly died in a Fermilab pond. The diver had been hired to check out the water pump in the pump, and ISD had not turned that pump off! Why? Because they did not want to interfere with the fire system! It is unheard of to check or repair an OPERATING pump, especially if it is an underwater one. Fire systems are put on fire test for this kind of repairs. There was no written procedure, no safety checks. Total negligence. Also in this case an "investigation" was allegedly performed but some ISD managers are still laughing about the whole thing. Fermilab's HR ignored the harassment by Randy, Scott, Lee and my manager Jason. Most people witnessed my harassment. But in the so-called "investigation" they did not talk to any of my peers who had witnessed all these harassing events. They just talked to managers and others who were part of the verbal assault and harassment. I walked into a very dangerous situation, and I will not ever tolerate being bullied and talked down to with vulgar language. I decided to speak up and stand up for myself, other women and everyone in that Lab. After I did that, I was let go with the following argument: "We don't want to see any woman treated like that." Two women from ISD who contacted the Fermilab Hotline [Editor's note: see "Statement of Fermilab Community Standards" at the bottom of this Appendix] on my behalf were displaced from their jobs at ISD. Unfortunately Fermilab keeps the sociopaths and they lose great people. Most of the Electricians have left that facility. Al condescendingly asked me "Who do you think you are?" My response was "Who do you think you are?" and I walked out." We are now going to provide some additional detailed information by the female electrician in reference to the troublesome man who persecuted her. This was also part of written documentation provided by the female witness to Heather A. Sidman in December 2022. "Dave's incidents We had worked together at Caterpillar, he was going through a divorce at the time, a divorce in which his wife was cheating on him with a guy they knew. She and the lover were both teachers in the local area. Dave would complain about the situation with people at the Fermilab Electrical Shop, and he would show me naked pictures of his ex-wife. I did not ask to be shown. Many of the other people who were shown expressed feeling uncomfortable being shown her nude pictures. One day I had to work with Dave on the main ring, he walked about 12-15 ft away from me, on the other side of his truck. He started talking to me about how someone peed on his equipment right before he had to clean it. Without turning around, I asked him, "are you telling me that because that is what you're doing right now?" he said "yeah, I told you I was going to", I said "no you didn't, and if I knew that I would have walked away" and when he came back to work on the AC unit with me, I told him, "and now you're touching my cowtools?" he said, "I used my other hand". There was an incident where I did express some firm resistance against Dave when he was questioning why my husband got to drive a nice car when mine is not. I firmly expressed to him, to shut his questioning down that it was what we wanted and that he deserved it. He apologized a day later saying that he just meant that the car my husband has was one that he was led to believe was for older people. One Saturday I volunteered to work from 6am to 2:30pm to work on lighting in Wilson Hall (I believe it was the 4th and 5th floor, finishing the fifth and moving on to the 4th). I was assigned to work with Rey. Our work orders only showed we were to work on the 5th floor, I didn't even have the work order number for the 4th floor in my queue. Dave showed up sometime after his shift which ended at 8am, he was to work from 12am to 8am, and then 4hrs of OT from 8am to 12pm. The fifth floor required a sign in on the Hazardous Analysis form. When we first began, we had a hard time finding it, we were just going to stay in the sides that didn't require a signature. Pretty shortly after deciding that, Rey found where it was. We signed it and continued working in that area, one person on the ladder and one handing the bulbs. Dave showed up sometime after 8 and closer to 9 on the fifth floor. He asked for the HA form and I told him that we didn't find it. He walked around for a bit (in this time Rey and I were just working and not paying too much attention to him) and said that he found it, as soon as he started to sign it I told him that we did find it but it was on the wall (because the one he was trying to sign was for the contractors). I went over to show him where, and while I was near him I smelled alcohol, and I said, "were you drinking last night?", he said maybe it was the hand sanitizer, and I said ok. I had told him twice, "we are almost done here, you can move to the 4th floor and we will pick up there after lunch". I said that because Dave hated Rey, and other weekends when the three of us were put to work together it was very awkward for me because I was in the middle with, "tell him this tell him that, what's he doing, why is he working so slow" from Dave. Dave agreed to go to the 4th floor, he took one case of bulbs that Rey and myself had brought up for the job. After he left, we realized there was a conference room with no windows that needed relamping and one other room that needed to be finished before we could leave for lunch. Rey and I had left at about 10:20 am for lunch. First we got rid of the used bulbs. Afterwards we went to site 39, Frankie was on shift and was scheduled to be the duty electrician from 08:00 to 16:00. We talked to Frankie till about 10:40, left to pick up lunch, and in that time Dave called, but the reception was lost, I tried calling him back but he didn't answer. Rey and I went to lunch as normal, when we came back Frankie told us that Dave asked where I was and Frankie told him something along the lines of, "she's not with you? She must be with him" and that Dave reacted as if he was upset and walked away. Sunday when there was a changeover (Josh was scheduled to work on call from 4pm to midnight) between Josh and Dave, Dave went on to raise his voice, complaining and telling Josh that I had lied to him, that I had deceived him and that I was a liar and that I couldn't be trusted while using the phrases "how can I work with her if I can't trust her." "She is a liar". Josh called me early in the morning before I was even awake and said that I needed to talk to Dave, and that he is flipping out etc. I tried all weekend to call him to apologize and to explain what my side of the events were, he ignored my calls on his personal phone and his work phone, till Monday morning I messaged him and asked if we could talk. He asked me to give him a few minutes to use the bathroom (this was about 7:20am before the morning meeting). When we finally talked he explained to me that he still felt that I purposely deceived him when I told him that I didn't know where the HA form was and that I didn't answer his phone call (when the reception was lost), and that I tried acting as if I was his boss by telling him that he could go to the 4th floor and that it seemed like I was trying to get rid of him. I still apologized and told him that a lie is something told with the intention of deceit, and he said a lie is a lie and that it didn't matter. Frankie and Randy were with Dave, and I was told that when I was on the phone with him apologizing, Dave tried making a scene by standing up and raising his voice very loudly, and that the impression he was giving them was that "he was trying to put me in my place to establish his dominance over me". He also said, "she doesn't even know me, if she knew me she'd know I don't drink". How it was explained to me was that he got very irritable when telling his story to Josh and Frankie even after they had tried to explain to him that it was a misunderstanding. He also went to DJ, our former electrical supervisor, about this situation. He showed up to the meeting in sunglasses and crossed his arms and didn't move or speak. As the days went by, he continued to badmouth me to other coworkers. While explaining to Frankie about how upset he was he had tears in his eyes (I was told by Frankie that there were visible tears in his eyes) and explained that he was crying because he was so worked up over the whole situation. Dave talked to the coworkers for months after this about how I lied to him and how I deceived him. The guys at the shop explained to me that maybe because he was cheated on by his wife and that because I am a woman, that maybe he sees me like his wife. He had been heard joking about me being his work wife. Some time in April 2022, shortly after that we had worked overtime again on a Saturday, but this was for a shut down, Rey and I had worked together, not by choice, but DJ had paired us together. We were doing high voltage cleaning. I left for lunch before Rey did, and in that time Rey had found something that needed to be replaced. DJ had Dave drive the bucket truck out to the site after lunch. After it was parked in the vicinity, Rey drove me out there in the work van and pulled up behind the bucket truck (and at the time I did not have a work van because mine was under repair). Dave started to drive in reverse, slowly at first and when Rey started to go in reverse as well, then Dave "gunned it" and accelerated. I was yelling and getting panicky at Rey telling him to hurry up. I am not sure how he did it, but Rey was able to back our van away before the truck could hit us. At some point Dave slammed the brakes and got out of the truck, and DJ told him "what's wrong buddy, need a hug?" and tried to joke about it and Dave yelled about how we weren't moving fast enough. Eric was there and said that he told him that he can't do that and explained the dangerousness of it. Dave then sat on the edge of the truck and crossed his arms with his sunglasses on and didn't respond to people for the rest of the day, as if he was the victim. Eric said that afterwards he tried talking to DJ about how he should take some action on that and also explaining how dangerous that is. However, my supervisor DJ did nothing about it." "I can still remember the dread and anxiety that I felt every day. Despite those terrible events, not only nothing was done, but on the contrary JP and Greg went out of their way to pair people who didn't get along together. I once heard them telling each other how funny that was. Tom, Frankie and Rick instead were really good at keeping Dave away from me. Still, the latter had told me of times when he had broken people's windshields in road rage incidents. He said that the police were often called. I told HR that this kind of violence did not help my concerns. Clearly, that meant nothing to them." In the story above, one can tell how the guy's sickness escalates slowly and relentlessly. At the end it reads like a horror story. Some thoughtful additional words to HR from the colleague who had tried to help the victim are in the following. "I now want to address who are we supposed to trust at the Lab? How many times has HR come down to our shop and pulled us aside, or just made their presence known in person and said, "HR is here for you" or asked any single one of us "how are things going?" Never. I have never met anyone from HR in our shop nor have I ever seen your presence in our shop, not once in almost 5 years. That alone has left us to feel isolated. We all know we can go to HR anytime, but what about HR reaching out to us to see how things are going? I believe this is a two-way street and that would have helped to build trust between HR and our groups. Maybe occasionally someone should pull aside a female employee in a shop filled with men and ask her "is everything ok?" I did this repeatedly and finally that is how our female colleague was finally able to tell me the truth. I have 4 daughters and want them to exist in a world that doesn't push them around or put their work qualifications down and intimidate them with horrible whispers. Men and any employee for that matter should not be allowed to take "possession" of them at work like Dave did to our female colleague. He was allowed to harass her and when she pushed back, he called her a liar and a deceiver! So, my point here is, we need to know we are safe at our place of employment. We need to know we are safe when we come forward with an uncomfortable situation. Our management has failed us in that regard and not created a culture of trust but one of fear for coming forward and speaking out! Our good old boys club of managers in our shop make us feel guilty, scared, and apprehensive to ever want to come forward and have dialogue for fear of being implicated as a snitch. It is my serious hope that this investigation will lead to a positive change in our culture, demonstrated by our HR Department and how you handle this situation. None of us deserve to be unsafe at work, especially when as electricians we are working with the risk of injury or death from a mistake because our minds are filled with fear and worry about our job security, personal security, and we are not able to focus 100% attention on our work tasks!" As we know by now, the lab and FRA are not interested in positive change and instead decided to cover everything up. How? Let's start with the gun holder. The official narrative by the lab was that there was just one lone paranoid guy complaining about Randy carrying a gun. They claim that an investigation was performed and successfully concluded. They call it successful because a consequence of these horrible events is a policy change on inspecting vehicles on site, i.e. now security does not have to inspect any vehicle, they just call law enforcement to do it for them (clearly without a warrant required). For the above cover-up to be successful, and specifically to be able to claim that there was just one lone wacko complainer, EVERYBODY in the chain of command and at HR had to pretend that there was no petition signed by 12 people who knew Randy well. This is why the line managers were so terrified to even just touch that petition and why the HR representatives NEVER asked for its signatories. They knew that if they had, several of those signatories would have confirmed Randy's threats of carrying a gun. For the cover-up to be successful, the lab also had to somehow twist the lame truth that they had not been able to inspect the vehicle. In short, they let that gun slip through their fingers. And exactly as in movies with corrupt cops covering up their own misdeeds, they decided to blame the witness. Everybody knows that when masquerading the truth with lies, another will be needed, and then another, etc. with no end. One of these lies is that they had to convince themselves that there was no gun in that car. Perhaps the most dire consequence of the previous fabrication is that they had to give the benefit of the doubt to the bad guy. All these deceptions completely clouded the standard approach for safety of using a cost-risk-benefits analysis. So the lab decided that it was safer to believe a troublesome individual who had been very likely carrying a gun as he had always claimed to everybody, rather than getting rid of him. And eventually, once the loose cannon was not just kept on the job, but further promoted, what other choice was there other than cutting any loose ends? Which was done by firing the good guy some time in 2023 under some behavioral pretext. Compare all of the above with the "Statement of Fermilab Community Standards" at the bottom of this Appendix, and talk about leaders leading by example, or at least implementing their organization's advertised policies! Unlessβ¦ in the same way that Security was justified in not performing their job because, poor them, they are not armed, some in upper management and at HR were scared of the bad guys. After all, what if they went after them with the gun??? That would be much different than the bad guys going after two diligent employees, wouldn't it? If this were the case, however, it would mean that the lab has become a street jungle where the strongest street gang wins. We pray that this is not the case. Similarly, Randy's own claim to several employees of killing a transgender prostitute abroad has gone unchecked! By closing an eye on a possible murder by assuming that it cannot be true, the lab is violating any conceivable safety policy, to say the least. And what about DOE? How much did DOE know about the gun on site? We interviewed the lab's FSO on this subject and it was clear that he had at least bought the official narrative. Finally, how did the lab cover up what happened to the female electrician? This was an easy case (for the lab). In addition to the usual avoiding like the plague any witness' interview on the bucket truck incident when it happened, in December 2022 they told the victim that she had reported the April 2022 events too late! (The assault by the obsessed electrician was at the very least a misdemeanor, if not a felony, and the statute of limitations is at least 18 months.) Then they just waited it out for her to feel completely overwhelmed and leave. Easy peasy with all that harassment going on all the time. In conclusion, one wonders how this can be called a "culture of safety" and how many know about this. What is certain is that all of this happened under FRA's purview. FRA is controlled by the University of Chicago. We hope that the DOE will consider what we presented in this report to restore Fermilab as a true leader in HEP science in the US and the world. Also, we are confident that the DOE will give a good example to all stakeholders by not rehiring the responsible party in any capacity of the lab's M&O.
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