So it should be no surprise at this point that I'm obsessed with morbid topics and that I'm generally a demonic person who deserves no love. However, I still crave a gf to care for and have s*x with. The way things are looking, it seems like I'll be an incel for the rest of my life but there's a work event in early February and I'm hoping maybe I'll meet a cute white girl there and we'll get married and have babies. It's a long shot, but I don't have many options. Don't act like I've never tried. I've been rejected in real life, and it's a non-starter online. As soon as anyone sees my face IT'S OVER. And this is not even considering the fact that I'm 156cm. It never began and I'm so depressed that I'll have to face the future sexless, loveless, and without anyone to care for me. The reality of it is brutal and I live it every day. I want a girlfriend so badly but I don't know how to get one. This year I've dedicated myself to finding a gf. I'll try any strategy that I haven't already and I'll accept every rejection that comes my way. The truth is I need love.
But that's not the topic of this post. Instead, I'd like to discuss one of the worst massacres in USA history - the Uvalde school shooting. The event took place on 24 May 2022 at Robb Elementary School. In total, there were 22 deaths (including the perpetrator) and the victims were around 10 years old. The perpetrator is Salvador Ramos. Here's a picture of him.
I know you're itching to jump into the main events of the day, but there is some backstory we need to cover first before we get to the bloodshed. So I suggest you get yourself something to drink or nibble on because this is going to be a long post going into intricate details. Before we continue, there is something I want to share. I'm still in love with my friend Sarah. Sometimes I send her loving messages, and she responds politely but it is obvious she only sees me in a platonic light. Sometimes she just ignores me completely. Am I being a creep?
I don't know why I keep torturing myself like this. I can't stay away from her even though I know I can't have her. My life is a tornado of broken emotions. I'd also like to mention that I've quit benzos and ambien. It's over. I have no more prescriptions. There are no pills in my house. I am free. I still crave the pills but I know that the time has come to leave them alone and continue with normal life. I can't go my whole life blacking out every other day. Now I only vape weed.
It's also worth mentioning that I've been enjoying Starfield recently. It's a really good game to get immersed in. I have no idea why people hated the game so much. There's plenty to do and it nails it's atmosphere really well. I like travelling to different planets and exploring new landscapes. I also think the story is well-written and I like Sarah Morgan very much. I think consumers are finicky and they don't really know what they want. Starfield is a perfect game and anyone who thinks otherwise is a deformed cuck.
Tell Me About Uvalde
I should start by mentioning I have never visited Uvalde. However, when the mass shooting occurred, I was obsessed with everything to do with Uvalde which allowed me to amass considerable information on the area and its history. The small town was established in 1853. It is located near the border, which means it faces trouble from a lot of border jumpers escaping from police. Consequently, it is not uncommon for schools to go on lockdown as police attempt to track down these criminals. Yes, people who enter a country illegally are criminals and I stand against illegal immigration.
It's worth highlighting how small Uvalde is. It has a population of roughly 15,000, making it an incredibly tiny town. Despite how small the town is, it has a robust police force with 39 police officers, 2 animal control officers and 11 civilian employees.
Slightly unrelated, but I need to go to work now and it's raining heavily. I'm already a nervous driver so it's going to be super scary to drive when it's raining so hard but I'm going to do it anyway. I hope nothing bad happens. I'll stop here to get ready for work and continue writing this piece at work because I'm basically getting paid to do nothing at the moment.
Whew, made it to work safely. It was a rather uneventful drive except when I stopped at a pedestrian crossing to let folks pass, some cars decided to overtake me. They're buttholes, they should have waited. Nobody respects pedestrian crossings anymore. You're supposed to stop if there's somebody there. Frick off with your car elitism.
Now back to Uvalde. As you can imagine, the town has a high Latinx population, with about 78% of its population identifying as Latinx. and nearly 20% identifying as white. Within Uvalde, there exists a few schools but the one we're concerned about is Robb Elementary. Located on 15 Old Carrizo Road, Robb Elementary was a school created in the 1950s and it was a part of the Uvalde Consolidated Independent School District. Due to white flight, the school had a population of over 90% Latinx.
Despite its small police force, the cops received a wealth of training. The city of Uvalde spent 40% of its budget on the policing department during 2019-2020. Furthermore, following the horrific Santa Fe shooting, Texas had given UCISD a $69,141 grant to improve security measures. I'm sure this would go to good use. The Chief of Police of the UCISD Police Department was Pete Arredondo.
So Who is Salvador Ramos?
So here is where things get a bit spicier, as we get to talk a bit about our killer. Salvador Ramos was born on 16 May 2004 in North Dakota. It's insane to think that kids in the 2000s are already shooting up schools. On an unrelated note, one time, I was talking to a younger cousin of mine and he asked what music I was into and I replied that I like hip-hop. He asked me what artists I like, so I responded Lil Wayne, Kanye, etc. and he said "oh those old rappers." Imagine my shock. He started naming the rappers he was into and I didn't know who the frick they were. Who the frick is Pooh Shiesty and the Shiesty Gang? What is Ice Spice? Frick this shit, I'm 29 and I already don't know shit about pop culture.
Back to Salvador Ramos. He lived in Uvalde from his early life and he attended Robb Elementary. He did not enjoy his time there and he was bullied mercilessly because he was poor. It is also reported that he had no friends. I was also bulied and have no friends. Just thought I should mention, no reason. He never finished school because he was dismissed in 2021 for having excessive absenteeism, which I don't understand. "You stay away from school for so much, we're going to punish you by letting you stay away from school forever!" Proper punishment would have been forcing him to go to school.
Now, from his teen years, it was evident that there was something not quite right with Salvador Ramos. He had fits of anger, and he was known to abuse animals, including cats. This isn't negligible, as it is a known fact that many many serial killers begin their tomfoolery by killing animals first. If you want to see him hold a bag of dead cats, you can follow the link below:
Cats are good because they take of pests. If it wasn't for the domestication of cats, humans would have never had the agricultural revolution. Therefore, it is bad to kill cats. One time, when I was a child, there was a kitten in the garage. My dad didn't see it and he ran it over.
Salvador Ramos didn't keep his sick shit to himself and he would go on an app called Yubo where he would threaten women with r*pe and abuse because I guess he found it funny. He would also threaten to commit a school shooting, something he would stay true to. Several people reported his account, but no formal action was taken which is an indication of just how lax moderation is on some sites. For this reason, I believe that the moderator to user ratio should be 1:1 and everybody should have a moderator observing their every move because there are just too many chuds out there and it's getting out of hand.
Salvador Ramos didn't spend all his time on Yubo. You see, he had plans of making money. He didn't need too much money, just enough to enact his dastardly plot. So he got a job at Wendy's. There, he mostly stuck to himself but he nevertheless gained the reputation of "school shooter" because he always wore black and had long, black hair. Personally, I think this is discriminatory. There is nothing wrong with wearing black or having long, black hair. This is like someone assuming I smoke weed because I have dreadlocks (I do smoke weed, but that's not the point). I hate stereotyping and I believe you should judge a person by the content of their character.
Although Salvador Ramos initially lived with his mother, they had a fight over the wifi, which caused Ramos to move to his grandparents house. It's not mentioned, but I KNOW it was about porn. Salvador didn't want the wifi cut off because that would snip his porn supply and he didn't want that. It's that simple. Anyway, now that he lived with his grandparents, he had a little more privacy and a bit more freedom. He would ride around with his friends shooting cars with BB guns and eggs. Of course, Slavador couldn't drive so it was his friends that were handling the wheel. In case you're wondering, Salvador was generally described as a quite person, although he could get aggressive at times. It should be noted that many of these descriptions come from his mother who has been very supportive of her son even after the disastrous events that took place in Robb Elementary.
So where was I? Right, I was discussing the past of Salvador Ramos. Of course, he had a girlfriend. Everybody but me has a girlfriend. Life is so fricking unfair. His girlfriend describes him in sweet terms and she was trying to change him to be a better person. He was also in contact with a 15 year old in Germany. This will be important later.
Salvador Ramos Begins His Evil Plan
Don't mean to spoiler you here, but Salvador ends up killing a bunch of kids. To do so, he needs a little planning. So he's living with his grandparents which means he has minimal expenses. Hence, he gets to save all the money he's earning from Wendy's. Imagine going to work as a fry cook for months just so you can save up money to kill kids. This guy is a sick frick. Fueled by pure hatred. He needed guns, so he asked his sister to do it for him. His sister refused, but this wouldn't be enough to deter Salvador Ramos. He waited until his 18th birthday and on that very day he went to Oasis Outback where he purchased a Smith & Wesson semi automatic rifle. A few days later, he purchased a Daniel Defense weapon.
His grandparents found out about the guns and they demanded that Salvador Ramos get rid of the gun because the grandfather had a felony so he was not allowed any firearms in the house. Of course, Salvador Ramos did not listen and he simply hid the guns. Salvador Ramos was intent on causing as much mayhem and carnage as possible. Having two semi-automatic weapons wasn't enough for him, so he installed a hellfire trigger to his Smith & Wesson. This is basically a device that increases the rate of fire of the weapon. Up until this point, there is no evidence that Salvador Ramos had ever fired a gun before.
The other day I watched this movie called Disgruntled Employee and it was about a male worker that worked in an office with all female workers. The workers were mean to him so one day he locks the building and he r*pes them all. The acting is terrible but I watched the whole thing from start to finish. Overall, a 2/10 movie, would not recommend. Have any of you watched this movie?
Now a gun is darn near useless without ammunition, so Salvador Ramos made sure he stocked up with so many bullets that you should think he was going to war. He purchased 1,657 total rounds of ammunition and in his sick, twisted mind, none of if was going to go to waste. To carry all this ammunition, he acquired a tactical vest, but the vest did not include ballistic protection. This is another detail that will come into play later. A day before the shooting, he called his sister crying talking about how he wanted to die. This was an ominous sign of things to come.
So we have a suicidal kid that kills animals, hates the world, is known as a school shooter, and has guns. What could go wrong?
Salvador Ramos Enters Robb Elementary
So is there any way this massacre could have been stopped? Well of course. Salvador Ramos had terrible opsec and he posted pictures of his guns online days before the attack. A little more than a week before the attack, he posted a message stating "10 more days" to which someone responded "Are you going to shoot up a school or something?". Salvador dismissed this and told them to stop asking dumb questions. The final opportunity to stop this atrocity came on the day of the attack. As previously stated, Salvador had a female friend in Germany. He told her that he was about to shot his grandmother. Then he told her he had shot his grandmother, then he informed her that he was going to shoot up a school.
The girl responded flippantly, not believing that Salvador Ramos would do anything of that nature. Well, she was punished for that shit, and she was found guilty of failing to report planned crimes. Well, everything he texted was true. He got into an argument with his grandmother over him not finishing high school, and Salvador Ramos responded by shooting his grandmother in the face. After that evil deed had been accomplished, he got into his grandparent's Ford F-150 and made his way to Robb Elementary which wasn't too far away. However, you should remember that Salvador Ramos did not have a driver's license so he was driving erratically. His driving was so bad that he crashed into a concrete ditch. If you look at the map, it's kinda clear that he just couldn't handle that corner due to inexperience.
He was slightly injured, but he was also in murder mode so this did not slow him down. A nearby funeral home heard the commotion and went outside to see if they could help. They were rewarded with a volley of bullets from Ramos, causing the two men to flee. One of them fell down but they luckily weren't shot. It's a blessing that Salvador Ramos didn't know shit about handling guns because he could have killed way more people if he had the aim of someone like Payton Gendron. The two men called the police and reported the incident. So, at about 11:28am, the police already knew there were was a shooter near the school. Keep that in mind.
Stumbling, he made his way to the school and scaled the fence. At this point, all was not lost. There were still a few opportunities to stop this mass shooter. A school resource officer had received the 911 call and headed to the school but instead of pursuing Salvador Ramos, he pursued an innocent teacher! This goes to show that the school resource officer knew nothing about the students he was protecting, as he couldn't even identify the teachers of the school. Disgusting. This mistake ended up costing several children their lives. Another opportunity came when a police officer was passing and he caught sight of Ramos. He had clear view to shoot Ramos. However, he chose not to because he was waiting for permission from his supervisor. Consequently, he didn't take the shot.
After entering the school grounds, Salvador Ramos entered the school through the West-facing entrance. A teacher had closed the door, but it did not lock as it was supposed to do. Salvador, crazed and murderous, began firing shots at 11:32am but it took until 11:43am before the school was placed into lockdown. Now, as I said, the area was used to illegal immigrants leading to lockdowns, and not everyone had heard the shots, so initially, the lockdown wasn't taken seriously. But it was very, very serious.
It should be noted at this point that it was graduation day for Robb Elementary, and after the graduation event, the children were allowed to either go home or spend some free time with their friends at school. Some kids chose to go home while others stayed behind and watched a movie.
Salvador Ramos Does a Very Naughty Thing
Now Salvador Ramos is in the school. He only brought one of his guns onto campus (the Smith & Wesson) and he wanted to shoot humans. He barged into room 111 which was being taught by Irma Garcia who was watching over 11 students. He said "Goodnight" to Irma Garcia before he fired shots at her, causing the children to scream in horror. But they would not be spared from the violence. Salvador Ramos then aimed his guns at the children at began firing at them. All 11 children in the room died. It was said that some of the kids suffered from "overkill" meaning that he shot them a ludicrous amount of times to the point where they were unidentifiable. He was having fun being a sick frick. He then entered room 112 which was adjoined to room 111 and began opening fire in there.
The inhabitants of room 112 had heard the shooting and the teacher Arnulfo Reyes told the children to hide under the desks. He regrets this because he feels like he turned his students into sitting ducks. However, this was the training he was given in the eventuality of a school shooting. After shooting Mr Reyes, he started shooting the children. Some of them hid while others, like 11-year-old Miah Cerrillo played dead and covered themselves in the blood of their dead students. What the frick.
According to the surviving students in room 112, the Ramos played sad music during the whole ordeal. Ramos probably thought the event would be over quickly, but he would be sorely mistaken. He heard the voices of the police on the other end of the door and he shot at the door, making the law enforcement flee. That was about the last time they approached the door for over an hour. So what did Salvador Ramos do in a room full of dead kids for over an hour? Well, this information is hard to gather. Some students say he was playing sad music. He also decided to shoot some kids again, and he tried to enter room 109, but the door was jammed shut so he shot through the window.
So Ramos sat around, waiting for a showdown with the cops. Afterall, Ramos was suicidal and it's likely he wanted to die by cop, but he wanted to kill a few pigs before that. But they would not engage with him which left him with plenty of time to come to terms with his deeds.
A common question is: how did any kids survive? He had over an hour to double-tap every single body. I think the answer to this is that Salvador Ramos is an idiot. He literally got outsmarted by a bunch of 10yos. They hid under the table, smeared themselves in blood, and that was enough to convince Ramos that they were dead.
Conclusion
I was going to include the conclusion to the event, how Salvador died, what happened to the school, how the parents responded, and how the police completely bungled the response, but the internet is being poopy at work and I realise that it would need it's own longpost to do the topic justice so I'll break this up into two parts.
This year I want to have a girlfriend so bad I'll do anything. I just don't know where to begin. I just want a kind girl that will love me and have s*x with me but it seems like an impossible thing to do. It's so unfair. Everyday I see people with girlfriends and the one common factor is that they're all taller than me. Nobody wants to date someone who is 156cm. It is over. I can't masturbate my whole life and try to live off imaginary girlfriends. Something has got to give. I don't know what to do. I'm so depressed. Sorry for the repeat Hollys. Like I said, the internet is poopy so it's hard to search for new ones.
Also, should I continue messaging Sarah?
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