Crystals Can Heal Not quite like I was last. I'm doing the shitty drugs that are stereotyped as being used by the socially r-slurred tech bro micro-optimisation life hack class, the ones who take (((nootropics))) not drugs. I'm slamming back memantine, phenibut, and uncomfortable amounts of caffeine. Since I've been a little zooted and deinhibited I also tried getting some modafinil analogs on order, I probably got scammed but maybe it'll come in.
My nervous system is on edge but my mind is too lost in the sauce to feel the same. I just feel off, alert but I feel nothing. Don't bother with these bullshit drugs, do the real things. The real things will ruin your life but you'll at least feel like you're climbing up while you're falling down. You'll experience nirvana and heck during the same day. It's exciting. I felt confused, but alive. I saved the world by peeling off my toenails.
Right now I'm just acutely aware I'm drugging myself with none of the fun parts that come along with that. Just mildly reduced inhibitions encouraging me to post this L. Not reduced enough to go back to onions and induce bipolarism again. It almost was, maybe if the last DNM I used was still there. I don't feel like sifting through markets and finding old vendors, or finding trustworthy new ones if the old vendors I used are gone. I'm pretty sure all the good PCP analogs are gone anyway, don't tell me if they aren't I'd rather believe they're gone and unobtainable. I'll keep my job on these shitty drugs, I probably won't keep my job if I go back to the good shit.
I'll get off this cocktail in a few days, probably. Not that good. Namaste.
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chill out with the caffeine bro that shits dangerous
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I know I fricked up. Meth is a gateway to caffeine, and I must live with the consequences. Namaste
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even if you surf and find em it's still not shit because there are still restrictions, unless ur already in the uk or some shit. OP don't frick with analogues you r-slur
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I tried going into the ghetto and asking if I could get a dipper but they called me white boy and beat me up. Namaste
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Won't memantine make you trip for like 3 days?
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It can but I don't take big doses. Only about 20mg. Just enough to keep my NMDA receptors tickled. It does have a long half life though and I've been taking it daily long enough where it's probably affecting me more than I think it is.
It helps keep me off PCP analogs when I crave them I think. The high from big doses doesn't sound that good and lasts forever so I've never tried. Namaste
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fellow noot-bro
same situation for me rn kinda, had to get off phenibut months ago which made my social life suffer immensely, and now I've really got to chill out on the frickin caffeine (450mg/day at peak) and get back on amphetamines so I can get shit done
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I used phenibut a while back and it didn't give me many issues, I think the memantine might be modulating it's affects. That or I just handle myself on drugs worse now.
Nootropics (aka shitty drugs) kind of suck and I'm jaded on the concept now, especially since most of the ones that actually did anything with little downsides (like piracetam) are a pain to get now. I have a bunch of the phenibut and memantine stacked up from when they took zero effort to get. My receptors crave modulation and it's the only thing I have to feed them. Namaste.
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