Check-in post: how y'all doing?

Oh jeeze, am I doing good?

No, grandma died in a really ugly way. I oscillate between feeling nothing and then getting the shit kicked out of me emotionally. I go back into work Monday, have to do some bigfrick presentation in front of C-Suite.

My boyfriend hasn't been very supportive tbh. Like he tries to be, I just don't feel supported. It's not very fun at all. I've pushed back my PhD program to fall, and I'm just checked out of everything emotionally. I'm with family still, and so I'm ok, I suspect this will change as we split up and do our own thing. Seeing my dad upset and hurt is also hurting a lot. He's so strong, but just, there's nothing I can do for him. I feel like a shitty son.