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I should note, however, that, after seemingly endless drama and him antagonizing me non-stop, the psych patient finally got moved to a different unit. I showed him nothing but kindness and he rewarded me by pooping all over me. As always, that's what I get for doing the right thing. No good deed goes unpunished. So much for karma.

When I was in prison, I wrote (and often repeated): "There are times when I honestly feel like my current life is the origin story for some comic book villain. With each passing day, I gradually feel myself turning into a truly bad guy."

During one of my previous extended durations in the SHU (solitary confinement), I read Man's Search for Meaning by Viktor Frankl, who survived the Nazi concentration camps and went on to become one of the leading psychologists in the world. It was interesting, to be sure, but it certainly didn't change my way of thinking. I am still an atheist, still a nihilist, and most definitely still a misanthrope. If anything, reading about the Holocaust just further reinforces my view of how utterly vile the human race is. To be honest, I've never remotely understood the use of the word "humanity" as a synonym for kindness, selflessness, mercy, generosity, and so forth. That's the opposite of human nature, which is why it takes people so much more effort to behave like that. No, when I think of humanity, I think of things like the Holocaust, the slave trade, the Rwandan genocide, the Srebrenica massacre, and, more recently, the ethnic cleansing in Ukraine. That's what humanity is all about. The word "humanity" should be used as a synonym for cruelty, bigotry, selfishness, greed, prejudice, depravity, and lust for power.

The classic "Greater Internet Frickwad Theory" (coined by the webcomic Penny Arcade) holds that "regular person + anonymity + audience = total frickwad". The internet (and especially the dark web) provides us with an invaluable portal into the darkest recesses of the human psyche because, when people are completely anonymous and they know that they won't be held personally accountable for their actions, they will simply behave like the feral, depraved, iniquitous monsters that they really are (I, of all people, should know a thing or two about this sort of thing). People reveal aspects of themselves on the internet that they would never reveal to anyone in real life - not even to a therapist. But the only thing stopping people from behaving like that in real life is the threat of personal accountability for it. Look at any place where there are no laws - whether it's Somalia or New Orleans - and you'll see people behaving the exact same way that they behave on the internet. Or look at how UN diplomats act, because they're given total impunity. That's just their true, horrible human nature coming out.

To be perfectly honest, I don't think that there is such a thing as good people, and I don't think that humans possess any redeeming qualities. I think that all human beings are intrinsically rotten to the core. Everything that people do is motivated by selfishness. We are the only species that takes pleasure in the suffering of other members of our species, and we are the only species that kills for pleasure and not for survival. We also reproduce just for the sake of reproducing, and the only other species that does that is cancer. We are a cancer on this planet and, when we inevitably wipe ourselves out of existence, it will be the best thing we ever did.

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