you cant talk to people anymore

you think you're someone's e-friend, right, and you drop a line in, something like "shut up cute twink" or "frick off BIPOC lmao" and they go apeshit, block you, and it's very upsetting.

im over thirty. i grew up on chans and ircs

i just dont know how to talk to people any more.

SO MANY people are like this.

you cant have a sneaky jab at someones insecurities and have a laugh about it, get a jab at yours straight back, and laugh about it.

i feel a massive disconnect between online and real life. all of the people i hang out with dont give a shit about this kind of jibbing. but i cant break out of my social circle because

1. i cant modulate my speech, which is practically done on impulse

2. everyone is a kitty.

3. frick off BIPOC

im darn frickin sick of it.

real life isnt supposed to be a larp.

the fact that i've started to think of real life as a larp is crazy.

social disconnect.