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The reason for this is that I went through this ADHD tips site that had multiple articles and all the tips advised were relevant to me.
Then on top of that I went through all the symptoms of ADHD and I feel like I match with 33-50% of it but then I try to remember back and feel like I was taught over time to stop a lot of my ADHD habits across my teenage years and even young adulthood.
I think my parents did a good enough job of raising me that most of my symptoms got masked to the point that I was still failing at life but still did not feel like I had some actual medical condition even if I constantly felt like something was wrong with how I was connecting to people and the world.
Anyways the other problem is that I am very good at reading books. Like I could read a 300 page book in a day across multiple days over a week when I was a kid as it made me feel good about myself and I loved fiction.
I also know loads of information about multiple fictional universes lore ( Halo, Destiny, Isaac Asimov connected universe, 40k, a few bits of warhammer fantasy ) which I realize normal people don't do.
I also appear to have a high verbal IQ as far as I can gather ( only in English though ) and a high general IQ ( I took the IQ test multiple times however so I don't know if I should count that ). I am also good at abstracting concepts but bad at math.
I require things to always have a cause and effect explanation and do have trouble falling asleep.
I also when I think tend to completely zone out the noise and sights around me. Which apparently is also an ADHD symptom as I tried this noise thing where I noticed that instead of my thoughts taking over my entire mind and functions, now with the noise I could hear the thoughts at the back of my head while still being aware of my environment. I realized that's how normies must perceive the world.
So anyways, I am almost definitely sure that I have adhd, pretty sure I would fall within the ASD segment as well due to at times having trouble with socialization due to lack of experience and being unable to comprehend how others perceive me except the things I learned via active study, and slightly confident that I have a very high IQ.
This does in terms of self diagnosis make me twice exceptional indisputably. ( First exceptional - ADHD , Second exceptional - specialized knowledge about random things but also my strong and profound r-sluration skills and ability to wordswordswords post long texts every single day without much difficulty once the anxiety went away and my great verbal memory which I displayed in earlier posts where I was able to track like 300-400+ words on the little game where that number wasn't even on the list. So my second exceptional gifts were blocked off by my anxiety and the low self esteem and difficulty focusing because of the tism. )
My question to you guys is where do I go from here.
I figured out what's wrong with me with a 90% certainly. I know the solutions. But like now can I stop trying to pretend to be like other humans or what? Do I announce every time I go into a new room that I am ADHD. Do I just work to mask way harder until I am a normie. Or should I double confirm by getting me the ADHD medication and seeing if that has an effect on me?
Thanks for your input.
Good luck to me and good luck to you.
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(should have reworded, i meant 30 hours over 3 days or so)
yeah this is reinforcing autism being likely to me, i mean shit, obviously everyone is different, but i do get those same issues as a diagnosed sperg. (tho isnt there overlap with adhd/tism? idk)
would definitely look into it eventually though, even if it ends up just being adhd just getting on meds would probably make a huge change
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There is.
True.
I would have liked to have enough earnings before hand before getting myself the diagnosis but maybe I just need to take the bullet and get the diagnosis first, the medicine to normie brain me so that I can then unfrick life enough to succeed even from where I am standing.
If I can improve myself every single day being an unmedicated sperg, I am very confident if you gave me the normie inducing medication you could max out my ubermenschen nature.
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if you have autism its already too late.
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I have developed enough self awareness to realize I have had women fall out of love with me as they realized that I had nowhere to push for the next step in a way that made sense. The tism really becomes visible once you go into personal life section and forming strong intimate bonds.
I am surprisingly likeable on a 1 to 1 basis though at least with the friends who hung around.
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unironically blame your parents
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Why?
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autism is not acquired. Its congenital, probably genetics and/or exposure to some nasty chemicals, I wonder why the rate of autism is increasing alongside neurodegenerative disease
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I think its a mix of genetics and some lead exposure or missed brain injury as a kid.
I used to head bang when I was little.
Smartphone overexposure likely also overstimulates low undiagnosed levels of tism and ADHD to noticeable levels.
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Tism is related to your brain being missdeveloped during pregnancy with improper myelin sheathes which quite literally r-slur the electric signals to your neurons, they'd be either too much or too little and your brain also misswires itself when it develops further. An example disease caused by a lack of myelin is multiple sclerosis however it is a progressive disease and it doesn't have any relation with autism nor does it make you act like a sperg. It just makes your own body a prison
don't worry, that doesn't cause autism but will probably make whatever you have worse due brain damage depending how how hard the concussions were and how commonly they occured. In sports it can lead to CTE, which is well to say not a good thing to have
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