My insurance approved me for Spravato (esketamine)!!! I start tomorrow!!!
It's inhaled (a spray) and then you hang out in a room for 2 hours. They said not to listen to music with words & that it peaks at about 40 mins. You aren't allowed to drive until the next day.
I've failed maybe 8 SSRI/SNRIs in my life and I'm currently on an off label (ie really fricking high) dosage of Prozac but still having acute suicidal ideation (SI).
Ketamine is an NMDA antagonist and works differently than SSRIs. A lot of people get relief from SI immediately after the first session but sometimes it takes a couple.
I'm so happy I finally might get some relief from my despair and suffering. I am really reaching “last resort” in terms of what's available to me. I have electro shock therapy left and that's about it. Hoping this works.
Has anyone else here done it?
Edit: I'm out of benefactor awards just fyi
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Legalize it
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did you tell them about rdrama
and they decided special 
k is the only solution?
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I did tell my hot psychiatrist all about this place and KF and the doxxing :(
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Why would you do that?
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He's really chill and I love him. Also had to explain why I was suicidal lol
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I think you're being a bit dramatic. If a forum full of streamer-hating a-logs found out I was mid I would merely contemplate mild self harm rather than death.
So glad you're still here queen. I mean on this site. But I guess in life too. I'm loving the doctors vs midlevels posts.
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I am already dealing with a lot of other things, this was kind of the straw that broke the camel's back. I see how it is “dramatic” but my feelings and emotions are not exactly rational right now. Glad you like my posts c:
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PICKMESHA BUTT shit...
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Frickin saved
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did you at least mention your v high truescore to turn him on?
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He's hot but he's gay. :(
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at least looking
at a nice face must have better 
therapeutic effects than a complete uggo
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INVITE HIM HERE!
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I will lmao
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how tf do u even no ur thearpists sexuality?? i swear americans are so fricking weird
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You are acting like you can't immediately tell some dudes are gay
Read what I wrote above. Now picture in your head that I put a /s at the end. Good job sweaty!
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ive met like 5 gays in my life
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lol how? You are on a website full of them
Read what I wrote above. Now picture in your head that I put a /s at the end. Good job sweaty!
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how terminally online do u have 2 be not to understand the meaning of "met"?
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Tell him to be my friend
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You can fix him
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Post pics
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What was his response?
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He was really chill, hard to get a read on him. He said my doxxer was a “trash person”
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Well he's definitely right about that
I'm a bit sceptical about most psychologists and therapists. My sister had mental health issues for years and had all kinds of treatment.
After a few months of cognitive behavioural therapy she improved more than all those years combined. She's now a functional member of society again.
I hope you found one of the good psychiatrists
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Thank you!! He's actually a real butt psychiatrist and also does therapy….so a true shrink. He def knows what he's doing. I've had like 10+ therapists and all but him and one other sucked.
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Hope it works out for you
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Yeah, tons of therapists just do "talk therapy" and you just talk and never actually do something. Like homework or work on some skills that help with your issues. Those that actually follow some therapy (be it exposure therapy, cbt, dbt, schema or whatever) actually try to help their patients.
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Honestly, frick those people. The least you could do is give some feedback.
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Cbt had the exact same result for my friend who's been depressed for years.
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I'm sorry but I'll always read that as peepee and ball torture
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Imagine being a good looking well educated financially successful man and being on this website
I mean, other than me
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Have you done it? (Even recreationally?) If so, what's it like?
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Tbh, I never tried it when I had access to it(long before they thought to use it medicinally in himans). And I didnt try it and instead did other psychedelics. The reason was is I researched it and my other options (erowid.org) and it seemed way crazier/less predictable than other drugs i could buy. I font get why ketamine was approved before other psyvhedelics(beyond that the FDA os obviously corrupt), butt theyve found that other psychedelics can also have anti-depression effects. If special K isnt as effective as youd lile id look into them perhaps.
Mushrooms: https://jamanetwork.com/journals/jama/fullarticle/2808950
LSD: https://www.goodrx.com/health-topic/psychedelics/lsd-used-in-treatment
DMT: https://www.hopkinsmedicine.org/news/newsroom/news-releases/2019/03/fast-acting-psychedelic-associated-with-improvements-in-depressionanxiety
I hope that helps! Good luck out there and dont stop believing in yourself!!
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I used to grow shrooms but they don't work when you're on an antidepressant and I can't risk coming off the Prozac :/
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Huh, TIL. Stay strong Queen!
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Yet another case of a person I know who's done hallucinogens and is really unhappy. It's still 100%.
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They actually really helped the depression
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I wonder if there's a long term effect because this is what I hear every time. "They helped me so much... yet for some totally unrelated reason I feel terrible now."
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It's so weird
how this goes.... Almost like psychs aren't a cure all especially for the already mentally 
ill 
Schizos be like if I take this lsd it will make the voices stop
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My foster dog was given Prozac today. What's your dose?
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I have a friend who was extremely depressed and treatment resistant so he started taking psychedelics. DMT had a hugely beneficial impact as did therapy.
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Supervised LSD use is shown to have great results in helping with the depression that comes with a terminal diagnosis.
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in high-school I was offered some and the guy told me it made him think
he was a cat 
and it sounded really 
embarrassing to me so I said no
I have heard
some positive 
things from other people since then, but it was after I quit doing drugs. I assume for the big sad it's probably smaller 
doses so it's probably more chill, idk
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Ketamine is awesome, it's a special treat for me every few months
It helped a few of my friends with depression but they are degenerates so who knows. Recreationally I recommend it for sure
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Snorting a small bump of ketamine makes you r-slurred for a bit. Like if you talk you sound Downsy and it's hard to make your body and mouth work right. I think I remember a bit of body load, like a pressure on you slightly, but it's been a really really long time. I'm certain it made me r-slurred for a bit. I'd do it again for sure, it was fun. It kicked in really fast, I'd say it lasted less than an hour.
Oh and you can completely disassociate and see yourself from above and shit. It's cray
Read what I wrote above. Now picture in your head that I put a /s at the end. Good job sweaty!
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Omg I want an out of body experience sm
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I felt like it was a fairly small amount to do that too but I bet the amount they prescribe is less. Hopefully not
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At the end of my physical therapy session today I said I was really proud of myself for not mentioning anything weird like Donkey Kong December and she laughed and said she loved hearing about DKD.
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We have the best demented geriatrics here don't we, folks?
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when I'm your age I'll be sure to tell all the youngins about my glory days on freeghettohoes.biz too
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wtf when did this link die
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my god...
the solution was so simple this whole time...
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I haven't done ketamine but I've done a bunch of other psychedelics (LSD, shrooms, DMT, mescaline). I could easily believe that it will blast your brain back into whack. Let us know how it is!
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ketamine isnt a psych
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What's it like, then?
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It's a tranquilizer. It makes it hard to move and makes you r-slurred. It's pretty nice. You disassociate from your physical body and it's weird
Read what I wrote above. Now picture in your head that I put a /s at the end. Good job sweaty!
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Like nitrous?
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It's more paralyzing than nitrous. And nitrous doesn't give you a sorta out of body experience in my experience
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It's a dissociative which falls under the label of "hallucinogen" alongside psychedelics and deliriants.
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Must be nice…I need hallucinogenics to make it through this physics degree
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its a disso like pcp dxm n mxe
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Building boats in the sand on LSD will go down as one of the best memories for me.
Krayon sexually assaulted his sister.
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I bought LSD tabs off the darknet once and did it solo cuz none of my friends were cool enough to do it and at peak I laid on the ground with my cat for like 2hrs (probably 30min IRL) and it was amazing. he was rolling around and shit all happy
the whole the beneficial side effects last days after thing is 100% true. I've done it enough to know
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yeah, it's kinda freeing of the mind but hard to explain unless you do it. I was always too afraid to do it by myself so always did it with others. Some of my best memories.
Krayon sexually assaulted his sister.
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I've done it a few times recreationally... It's very dissociative. I remember playing a board game and I could feel the ebb an flow of the game (like, I was connected to the game... It was fun).
Go in there with something that you want to work on and you might be able to see it from a completely different light and contextualize what you're going through.
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Thank you!!! I've done psychedelics, just a little scared for this!!
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It's different but not more intense than tripping. The worst thing I've found about k is that is comes from a shady dealer...
In a controlled setting, with a controlled dosage (I could totally do another bump, lol); You should be golden.
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the dose matters a lot, most people who have weird dissociative stuff (k-holing) take very large doses, at milder doses its just a fun high with minor 2nd guessing some stuff you percieve
if youre in a room with nothing interesting nothing will really happen
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So basically you can't take it home w/ you and have to use it in their facility?
How long are the effects supposed to last? Is this like a weekly thing?
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It's 2x a week for 4 weeks and then once a week maintenance.
There's a REMS program bc of it being a controlled substance with certain risks. It's an FDA thing. Also they want to monitor you to make sure you don't have any bad effects.
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Yeah the REMS thing does make sense. If anything I'm just surprised because I feel like psychiatrists are usually much more lackadaisical when it comes to prescribing uh "heavy medications".
Is the once/week indefinite? Or do they try to take you off after a few months?
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I think indefinite but I'll have to ask
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Go offline. Seriously, it will improve your mental health. This isn't you-specific advice either.
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You're really right. I should intermittent fast rdrama
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That's not the same thing and you know it.
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I do think you're right, it's just very hard.
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If it wasn't hard it wouldn't be so necessary. I also think you haven't actually tried that hard to do it before either. Turn it all off and you'll feel better and you know it.
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Can you get me unbanned on kf
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Yes. I have that power.
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Least obvious
Johnny 
is the account thx king
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Hope you still remember us after the ECT 😢
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Lmaooo ikr
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Have u tried sleep deprivation therapy?
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Yes on my own and it works but temporarily :/ The SI is chronic so I can't live like that.
I also have TMS and residential therapy left but that is fricking it as far as I know.
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Sorry to hear that
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I was going to ask if you'd tried TMS. I haven't tried it because of the time commitment (you have to go every day for a number of weeks). It also seems kind of woo-woo so who knows.
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