The Downfall
It's like being sucked into the ground roughly, like being turned inside-out and seared at a white-hot temperature. It's unbearable, painful, exhausting. Your mind craves for an escape 
but there 
is none because your mind is the source 
of the suffering. It courses through your body, chills your bones, freezes your thoughts, and kills your happiness.
Life isn't worth living 
when you're in this state. Suicide 
feels 
like the only answer, being alive 
feels painful. You can't see two minutes into the future, it's just the agonizing present 
bubbling within. So what's the cure?
The Cutting
Grab a razor 
blade 
and place 
the cold blade 
on your skin. It's a quick 
swipe, faster than swiping a credit card. All you see is white 
flesh 
for a brief moment 
before 
the blood 
begins to rush. It feels so good but it hurts so bad. You deserve the pain because you are a wicked 
person. You're alone 
in this world 
and nobody loves you.
Fighting the Urge
Today I will not cut myself. It's only one day but it's all I can muster. I make no promises about tomorrow. I don't know if tomorrow will be better. The monster 
may return, the evil thoughts may possess me again, and I will have to fight 
the giants of misery.
There will be tears 
but there will be no blood.
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I honestly thought from the title this was going to be about bulking.
But seriously, how do you not realize cutting is fricking lame? You make a fricking mess after your "euphoric" pain high. "Oo your mind craves escape" "Oooh your mind is the source of the suffering"
"Oooh it chills your bones and freezes your thoughts" "Ooh I deserve the pain because I'm a wicked person" neighbor shut up you're not Arthas Menethil cutting yourself with Frostmourn
Like I heard this shit from my wife's friend who is/was a cutter, talking bout how its a form of controlling the pain. lol its a lie, you're not in control if you're dependent on it as an outlet. You lie to yourselves to chase a sensation to cleave flesh.
You're seriously better off just jerking off as your guilty negative wave emotion outlet. It's a lot less messier to clean up and your arms wont have to look like a tic-tac-toe tournament.
News flash, life is pain, we all have a shadow inside us, a darkness, and there is no obligation of love or companionship owed to you. It doesn't come out of thin air, it's what you have to make, and if you can't make it, then you make yourself. Pursue excellence. Master yourself.
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None of these words are in the Bible
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