I'm struggling so badly

I'm so miserably depressed I can't find a reason to live. I fricked up my 20s and I'm stuck with a useless Masters degree. I can't get a job and the worst part is that I'm 156cm. I just got another rejection today following an interview. Hundreds of job applications with no success.

The pills aren't working because the problem isnt chemical - my life is shit and it's justifiable to be depressed about it. Shattered dreams, broken hope, and wasted time is all that remains.

I keep searching for a job, a gf, a PhD, stability in this life but nothing comes. It hurts so bad I want to cut myself to pieces. Just viciously self-harm. Can anyone relate?

I feel so worthless, too worthless to carry on. It's another evening of crying myself to sleep, tears streaming down my face as I type this.