I'm really really sad (🌸•︵•)💔

I was super sick today (🌸>.<). Had a stomachache and didn't leave bed at all (🌸•︿•)💧. I even called in sick to work (🌸•︵•) which is something I haven't done in years. Somehow that made me super depressed and sad (🌸｡>﹏<｡), and I don't mean the internet "haha I'm so depressed xD" depressed (🌸-_-), but the "I've been seeing a psychiatrist weekly for the past 4 months" depressed (🌸´•︵•)💭.

I am doing okay in some areas of my life, but somehow all of this feels null and stupid and devoid of purpose (🌸｡•́︿•̀｡)💧, and that makes me want to cry (🌸TT_TT). Why is life even worth living? (🌸•︵•)💭 There's nothing that makes me truly happy (🌸•︿•), and the older I get, the more frustrated and sad I get that everyone else seems to find life worth it (🌸•-•)💔. Am I broken? (🌸｡T_T｡)

Anyway, I needed to vent to someone about this, and I guess I chose this place because I'm stupid (🌸｡>﹏<｡)💦. That's all. Have a great night (🌸´•︵•`)✨.