>be me.

>schizo.

>have gma who is crazy and terrible.

>she hasn't let us in the apartment since rona.

>sus-theme.mp3

>gma goes to hospital.

>decide to open her house.

>completely unlivable apartment of roughly 4yrs of grime, cat piss/shit, food, mail, trash, and clothes.

>gma has alienated basically everyone.

>attempt to clean out house yesterday with the few people who haven't written her off.

It smelled as bad as you're imagining.

No amount of money is worth this personal heck I'm in. Thanks for listening.

Blacked out last night, I hate blacking out more than anything. I don't think I did anything embarrassing but I feel like I can't show my face for a couple weeks just in case. My hands are scraped up so I probably fell down walking home.

Feel like it's time to go sober for a while. I need to lose weight anyways.

!boozers

This week (Thursday) I got to go to hospital for a gastroscopy, they stick a tube with a camera down my throat and it goes to my stomach because I've been having serious issues First time I've had this done and I'm really nervous but they are going to sedate me and maybe I'll meet some cute nurses. I get two days off work as well

Wish me luck

My wife left me

So I moved into my new dorm yesterday and met my Roomate. He's a gym bro engineer and he seems nice like he wanted to go to dinner with me and talk to me but man it's kinda awkward. I also have my dress hanging up in the open closet and have a ralsei and tunic fox plush on my desk. So some people were out playing switch so I go up to room to grab my pro controller. When I get in there my Roomate has like 8 guys in there and they all smell like they just left the gym like it was musky. I nervously grab my stuff and walk out also trying to hide my boner. As I'm walking away I hear a round of laughter . When I go back to my room my roommate isn't there and I'm playing holocure as I need a new ADHD stim game and it's free.

So my Roomate walks in and goes “wow you must like anime see you have a touhou wallpaper are playing anime game and have “anime plushes”. I tell him I don't watch much anime I just don't and he says it's okay as he watches high school DxD on crunchy roll “for the plot” . I explain that touhou is a video game and so are the plushes and he goes “what's this then?” Referring to the dress and I tell him it's my maid dress and fist bumps me and says we need to be honest.

Anyway that night I am repeatedly woken up by him playing techno music with anime girl voice samples and I hear what sounds like him moaning as he jerks off and cums but I was too nervous too look. It sounded like a hentai music video.

Anyway is my Roomate trying to bang me or is he just trying to find common ground?

Also did he actually have a loud goon sesh? Or was it just like a Hentai game or am I just hallucinating? If was gooning was he deliberately trying to wake me up so I'd join?

Fricking weird man.

EDIT: He made me watch high school DxD clips so maybe the moaning was him watching that very loudly at 3 am while also blaring his music he plays all the audio on his phone over a blue tooth speak so hes watching anime and listening to tiktok super loudly at the same time

A sigil is a kind of symbol that is used in magic. It usually looks like a pictoral signature or a seal. They often follow a specific intention, usually of summoning some kind of angel or devil. Even modern wiccans or whatever they're called will apply specific attention to their own created sigils. I have provided examples below that are from the lesser key of solomon.

You can see how they appear complicated but are still replicable.

I feel the introduction of the hypersigil is best left to be described by Grant Morrison who made one of the most famous hypersigils ever, the comic book series invisibles:

"The 'hypersigil' or 'supersigil' develops the sigil concept beyond the static image and incorporates elements such as characterization, drama, and plot. The hypersigil is a sigil extended through the fourth dimension. My own comic book series The Invisibles was a six-year long sigil in the form of an occult adventure story which consumed and recreated my life during the period of its composition and execution. The hypersigil is an immensely powerful and sometimes dangerous method for actually altering reality in accordance with intent. Results can be remarkable and shocking."

The idea of a hypersigil is to create a feedback loop between an external or extended persona and a primary self. Basically if I were to make a work of fiction through any means with the intention to further my life it could begin to manifest through the work I put into it. Though I haven't seen much said about this part online, I believe other people viewing it and affirming its message would only help to further my goal.

I cannot produce music or videos so my creation would have to be based in writing or art. I want to be very specific and careful with how I want to proceed with it as I want to give this project the proper time and dedication that it needs to work.

Advice on how I should proceed is greatly appreciated.

NO CRITICISM ONLY HELPFUL ADVICE IS WANTED

I shit myself

A lot of people hate the personal posts while other people like to blog. I figured this would be a good contribution to the community so people can block it if they don't want to see those kinds of posts.