I am so sick of gender ideology

I am so sick of gender ideology. It's not only extremely sexist and reinforces gender roles and stereotypes, it's also very harmful to transsexuals such as myself. In the first place, it took me probably ages longer than it should have to realize what's wrong with me, precisely because all the people supposedly changing genders make it a social and identity thing based on sexist notions about men and women, and shoot down anyone who calls it a disorder or illness. So it never occured to me that I could have a disorder where I am wired to function in the body of the opposite s*x. I am not stereotypically girly, nor would I have anything against merely being a feminine man; what I am dealing with isn't even remotely the same thing.

But of course, we have to be erased, because our very existence completely disproves gender theory. Which by the way was invented by a p-dophile named John Money who decided to transition a baby boy after a botched circumcision, and claimed it had been a complete success even though in reality he was sexually abusing the poor kid, who had the same s*x dysphoria symptoms as me and grew up to detransition.

Speaking of detransition, that's what happens when you try to cure gender nonconformity with treatments meant for transsexuals. LOADS of kids especially are transitioning because it's the cool thing to do right now, if they show even the slightest deviation from stereotypes they are immediately told they are trans even if they are completely comfortable with their bodies. Even if they do experience discomfort, that's completely normal for kids who are about to start or just starting puberty, and there are a myriad of other potential causes too. I could literally see myself, if I had been born female like I should have, getting sucked into this and thinking I'm actually a boy or some made up gender, and then detransitioning after realizing I'm just not stereotypical and that's okay. In fact, you could say I DID fall into this by dismissing my body dysphoria on the basis of stereotypes.

Finally, the trans movement really truly is insane. And that hurts me because, since it is very difficult for most people to distinguish gender from stereotypes, they can't tell the difference between me and them. And that makes me look really bad. I will likely never be able to transition or even mention my struggles to anyone irl largely because of this. That someone could have a tragic disorder like me is forgotten in the minds of most, gender identity insanity is all that's left in most people's minds.

Not to mention how offensive and dismissive it is for people to celebrate something that's ruined my life and takes too many lives, and think it's the most amazing thing ever. And if that wasn't bad enough, I'm expected to join them myself, or be called a TERF and canceled!